How My Perspective on Love Has Changed: Victims and Perpetrators
As I have written in other articles, I used to have a guardian guide named "Sele-chan." Now, I view Sele-chan as a symbol I created myself to receive the love and wisdom within me.
There is a series I wrote when Sele-chan was with me called "The Story of the Other Half." This was written in a dialogue format, half-fictionalized and half-channeled.
Within that series, there is a story called "Victims and Perpetrators."
(If past lives are an illusion, does that mean reincarnation doesn't exist?)
From the perspective of divine consciousness, yes.
Essentially, everything is one divine consciousness.
From this perspective, concepts like time, space, and reincarnation are all
nothing more than illusions created by divine consciousness.
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Concepts like reincarnation and past lives also exist
because they are necessary to organize emotions.
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To be a victim in a past life means
that you were also a perpetrator.
It is impossible to be just one or the other.
Perpetrator and victim,
every soul has experienced both equally.
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When you were young, you suffered sexual abuse and were betrayed by friends,
and that became a major trauma.
You have had various other so-called "hurtful" experiences.
But you can understand now, can't you?
That the event itself was divine love.
Here, I am talking about past lives and reincarnation.
That even those were illusions.
At that time, I was at a point where I could understand that "both victimization and perpetration have meaning within a greater love."
This is because by writing about the sexual abuse I suffered through Kundalini yoga and on note, I was able to face it in my own way, sublimate it, and accept it.
Back then, I thought I could return pain into love.
But what if my trauma was still in a state of pain?
If someone had told me "everything is love" or "it's a soul's lesson," I wouldn't just have been unable to accept it; I would have felt it was verbal abuse and been hurt even more.
In everyday life, anyone can be on the side of being hurt or the side of hurting others.
This happens when there is a disagreement or when both parties are looking at different layers.
Even with the same event, both sides can end up hurt.
That does not mean the depth of the wound is the same.
One side might think it was just a fight.
But the other side might be driven to the point where they find it painful even to feel the other person's presence.
The old me thought I could wrap everything in love.
But now, before that, I want to stand by the wounded individual.
Love is not about immediately turning wounds into meaning.
Love is also about not fixing the other person as a complete villain.
But at the same time, it is about not erasing the fact that "I was in pain."
I will not pretend that the version of me that was hurt, or the version of me that might have hurt others, never existed.
I do not deny my former self.
I was healed many times by touching the perspective of great love, and it supported me back then.
The love I have now has changed; it is not looking down from above, but descending closer to the individual, a love that watches from beside someone who is in the mud.
Love is not about understanding everything beautifully.
It is about not leaving the wounded individual behind.
And yet, not making the person who hurt you a villain forever.
That is the kind of love I want to deepen now.
Life is a spiral.
Lessons on the same theme are repeated over and over again.
Each time, I want to keep updating my perspective.
At Echoes of Self, we create a space for you to re-examine the voices and emotions within yourself through dialogue with AI and sessions.
Sometimes you may touch upon a broader perspective of love.
But before that, do not leave your wounded self behind.
Instead of rushing to turn everything into meaning by saying "everything is love,"
first, have a place where you can say, "I was in pain."
And, without erasing your own pain, do not fix the other person as an eternal villain either.
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