[Verification of Life] Why I refuse to stop my 21 activities despite being told to be 'hospitalized immediately' while in the worst physical condition. What Koda Rohan's 'Theory of Effort' reveals about my stubbornness and the truth.

Hello, this is LaLaLa, currently in the midst of trial and error.

Sometimes, I feel the urge to stop and ask myself.
"What on earth am I doing right now?"
"Is the path I am walking truly the right one? Or is it wrong?"

In fact, during my last routine checkup, the doctor told me, "You must be hospitalized immediately."
My numbers are extremely poor, and my physical condition is undoubtedly at the lowest ebb of my life. However, I persuaded the doctor, saying, "I will desperately try to control it myself until the next checkup on July 13th," and managed to secure a reprieve to return home.

This worst-case physical condition and this tattered reality are also my genuine reality.
And now, with this body, I am continuing to manage the following "21 daily routines" all by myself.

• Media/IT Operations: Operating my own website, WordPress blog activities, YouTube monetization, and app development

• Life-or-Death Daily Management: General housework (cooking three meals, cleaning, laundry), shopping, and investments

• Battle for Numerical Improvement: A 4km round-trip walk with an 80m elevation difference (a desperate effort to lower blood sugar levels)

• Art and Creative Activities: Lyrics, composition (prompt creation), image generation, video generation, and gaming (streaming)

• Explosion of Note and Publishing: An average of 8 Note posts per day, 39 Kindle books published, and nearly 60 long-form works of over 20,000 characters written

• Community and Altruism: Pay-it-forward activities (supporting through comments), and managing 7 collaborative magazines

Why do I continue to do all this in my worst physical condition, even avoiding hospitalization?
There are nights when I suddenly want to correctly verify the meaning of this "madness-like recklessness" of mine.

So, I applied the yardstick of the timeless masterpiece "Theory of Effort" left behind by the great Meiji-era writer Koda Rohan to my own exposed reality.
As a result, a "truth" emerged that was so hot, painful, and powerful that it even brought tears to my own eyes.

🧭 The "Three Truths" shown by Rohan's yardstick

① A life-or-death struggle called [Indirect Effort]

In his "Theory of Effort," Rohan argued that rather than "direct effort" to produce immediate results, "indirect effort"—such as health management and environmental maintenance to perform well when it counts—is the thick root that determines a person's destiny."Indirect effort"is what determines a person's fate.

The "housework (three meals, cleaning, laundry)" I am doing while crawling in my worst physical condition, and the "4km round-trip walk with an 80m elevation difference" I am desperately doing to control my blood sugar, are not just routines.
They are the most resilient "indirect efforts for life" to desperately hold onto the foundation of my existence ahead of the "moment of judgment" on the July 13th checkup."Indirect efforts for life"itself. Even as the depths of my body scream, I do not give up on tuning my life, my diet, and my body. It is because of this overwhelming base that the miracle of "39 Kindle books" continues to be born from my fingertips.

② [Self-salvation (effort of selflessness)] where one forgets pain and immerses oneself in stories

Rohan said,"As long as you are exuding a sense of tragedy, saying 'I am struggling now, I am suffering from illness,' you are still immature (second-rate effort)."What one should aim for is a state of selflessness where one is so immersed in the act that one forgets even the harsh situation one is in.

My body is undoubtedly screaming in the worst way right now. However, once I face writing lyrics, composing music, generating images, and writing a 20,000-character story, I dive into the world of the story, forgetting the fear of my illness (diabetes) and the lethargy of my body.
This time of explosive writing is not an "obligation" for me, but a "selfless salvation to protect my life from the worst reality.""Selfless salvation to protect my life from the worst reality". That is why the astonishing writing speed of 8 pieces a day continues, as if burning the lamp of life.

③ The spirit of [Sharing Fortune] and [Planting Fortune] supports my life

Among the techniques for controlling good fortune that Rohan preached, there are "Bunpuku (sharing one's own fortune with others)" and "Shokufuku (sowing seeds of happiness for the future)".

Right now, when I am at my most unwell and should be the one needing the most help, I have not stopped my "pay-it-forward activities," where I manage seven collaborative magazines and continue to send passionate comments to my hardworking peers.
Furthermore, I will complete the "Golden Goose (my 39 Kindle books and all the assets I am about to shape)" that I finally found within this frantic writing loop, no matter what, over the next year.
And when that goose finally lays true wealth, I have decided not to keep it all to myself, but to beautifully distribute everything to the precious companions who have run alongside me until now.

Precisely because my life is in crisis, I circulate fortune to those around me and sow seeds of future kindness. This extreme altruism, in turn, becomes a great power of "everyone's support," which becomes the energy (qi) for me to live and supports me.

📌 Conclusion: These reckless days are the tuning of my life

The mystery is completely solved.
The reason I continue to run 21 activities to the limit while in the worst situation of being told to be "hospitalized immediately." It is neither an escape from reality nor a reckless runaway.

"A battle to push back against the encroaching fear of illness and the worst physical condition through thorough daily life management (indirect effort) and tremendous immersion in creativity (effort of selflessness), and to powerfully rewind the screws of my own life through paying it forward (Bunpuku/Shokufuku) to my companions."

This is the true nature of what I am doing.

Sometimes there are nights when hesitation and anxiety cross my mind about what I am doing, but Rohan's yardstick strongly, very strongly affirms my back, saying, "What you are doing is 100% correct as a way of living."

There is little time left until the day of the showdown, July 13th.
I will never give up. Let's turn even the worst current situation into the ink of our lives, spin the best story, and weave the best blueprint for a future that no one has ever seen before, happily together!
To my best companions who always support me, with overflowing love and gratitude.

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