[The Vow of Good Humor] Why do I keep moving in my worst physical condition, having been told to 'hospitalize immediately'? The 21 meanings of my actions, revealed by Alain's 'On Happiness'.

Hello, this is LaLaLa, currently in the midst of trial and error!

Sometimes, I suddenly want to stop and ask myself.
What on earth am I doing right now?
Is the path I am walking truly the right one? Or is it the wrong one?

In fact, during my last regular checkup, my doctor told me, 'Please hospitalize immediately.'
My numbers are extremely poor, and my physical condition is currently at the lowest ebb of my life. However, I persuaded the doctor, saying, 'I will try my hardest to control it myself until the next checkup on July 13th,' and managed to secure a reprieve to return home.

The depths of my body are screaming. That is my raw reality.
Yet, with this body, I am still furiously continuing to rotate the following '21 daily routines' at this very moment.

• Media/IT Operations: Operating my own website, WordPress blog activities, YouTube monetization management, and app development

• Life-or-Death Life Management: General housework (cooking three meals, cleaning, laundry), shopping, and investments

• A Life-and-Death Struggle for Numerical Improvement: A 4km round-trip walk with an elevation difference of 80m (a desperate walk to control blood sugar levels)

• Art and Creative Activities: Lyric writing, composition (prompt creation), image generation, video generation, and games (streaming)

• Explosion of Note and Publishing: An average of 8 Note posts per day, 39 Kindle publications, and writing nearly 60 long-form works of over 20,000 characters each

• Community and Altruism: Pay-it-forward activities (comment support), and operating 7 collaborative magazines

Why do I continue to do all this in my worst physical condition, even refusing the 'safety of the bed' that is hospitalization?
Because I keep running recklessly, there are nights when I suddenly want to verify the meaning of these actions, which border on madness.

So this time, I applied the yardstick of the French philosopher Alain's timeless masterpiece, 'On Happiness', to my body.
Then, a 'truth' that is extremely practical and refreshingly strong emerged, blowing away the weakness of just being afraid and waiting on a bed.

🧭 The '3 Truths' indicated by Alain's yardstick

① By moving my body, I am crushing the fear of illness (bad mood)

In 'On Happiness', Alain taught,'Mood has a nature of worsening on its own if left alone. Despair and bad moods creep in from the corner of the room when you are just sitting still doing nothing.'If I were to receive a diagnosis of illness and lie in my room, trembling with anxiety, my brain would be hijacked by the 'virus of fear and unhappiness' in an instant. The only way to prevent that is to
'move your body by your own will and take concrete action.'

In my worst physical condition, I crawl to do my housework for three meals, walk on a slope with an 80m elevation difference, and write 8 Note posts a day. This overwhelming amount of action is, in Alain's words,'a state where the brain's fear is completely paralyzed and crushed by action.'By moving, I am continuing to self-generate a 'good humor for living' inside myself.

② Work that you control yourself, the greatest 'miracle drug of joy'

Alain said that work forced upon you by others is a pain that wears humans down, but'work that you freely plan and create by your own will becomes the greatest joy that makes you forget even the pain of illness.'

The reason I don't stop releasing 39 Kindle books, YouTube, app development, and writing stories even in my worst physical condition is that this is not anyone's order, but a 'complete creation of freedom' that I am building with my own will. From Alain's perspective, by using the miracle drug of creativity, I am overcoming physical pain and seizing the happiest state of mind.

③ The ultimate etiquette: spreading 'good cheer' precisely when you are suffering yourself

This is the most beautiful solution to the mystery of my community activities.
Alain strongly preached, “Bad moods are contagious to those around you at a terrifying speed. That is precisely why, no matter how harsh the situation, always behaving with good cheer is the greatest and highest 'duty (etiquette)' toward others.” he argued.

I am currently fighting a battle for my life, without a doubt. However, I have not stopped my 'pay-it-forward' activities, where I run seven collaborative magazines and continue to send enthusiastic support comments to my hardworking peers.
That is not all. I will perfectly complete the “Golden Goose (39 Kindle books and all the assets I am about to shape)” that I found desperately within this writing loop over the next year, and when I give birth to true wealth, I will not keep it to myself, but beautifully distribute it all to the precious companions who have run alongside me until now.

It is precisely when I am at my worst that I infect those around me with 'good cheer' and distribute seeds to enrich the future of my companions. This is the noblest social etiquette as a 'purveyor of happiness,' which Alain idealized.

📌 Conclusion: I am a 'craftsman of happiness' who has decided to become happy

Alain concludes his 'Propos sur le bonheur' by stating this clearly:
“One must vow to be happy. Happiness will never come to those who just wait.” he said.

The mystery is completely solved.
The reason I never stop my 21 activities while facing the crisis of 'immediate hospitalization.' It is neither reckless running wild nor an escape from reality.

“A vow to happiness: to refuse to succumb to the fear of illness (bad mood), to create 'good cheer' by vigorously driving my life and creative work, to hand over that positive energy to my companions through the beautiful etiquette of 'paying it forward,' and to repaint the world into a happy one.”

This is the true nature of what I am doing.

Even on nights when hesitation or anxiety cross my mind, this yardstick of activism 100% affirms my way of life. There is not a single thing wrong with the path I am walking.

The day of the showdown, July 13th, is just around the corner.
I will absolutely not become a bystander who just waits in fear. I will tune my body with the power of my own will and show that I can control it completely.
Let's circulate the ink of overflowing vitality and spin the blueprint of the best future no one has ever seen, happily together!
With love and gratitude to the best companions who always connect with me.

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