[3-Minute Essay] Messages Named Emotions: A Journey to Decipher the Map of Living Difficulties (To the Me Who Had 10 Likes)

Today, I am writing while looking back at some of my past articles.

This article is a remake of one I posted on June 19, 2025.
You can find the original article here (it had 10 likes).

Messages Named "Emotions": A Journey to Decipher the Map of Living Difficulties

Recently, I reread the articles I wrote when I first started note,
and thinking some parts were a bit hard to read,
I decided to rewrite a few of them little by little.

By the way, I also wrote about that
in this article.

In yesterday's article,
I wrote that my note is like a "dark pot" (a hodgepodge).

One moment I'm writing about psychology,
the next about lonely deaths,
then about the white bone letters (Hakkotsu no Gobunsho),
and then about Heshiko (fermented fish).

I think it's a bit of a strange note myself.

But looking back,
the broth for that "dark pot"
might actually be "emotions."

Today, I'm talking about those emotions.

Emotions are not "things that cause trouble"

"Why do I get so anxious?"

"I got depressed over the same thing again."

Don't you ever feel like you are being swayed by your own emotions
in ways like that?

I myself was like that for a long time.

Getting hurt by trivial words,
or over-analyzing someone's facial expressions.

Even though my head knows I'm "worrying too much,"
my emotions just can't keep up.

There was a time when I blamed myself for that.

But while studying psychology,
I realized something.

That is

Emotions are not things that trouble us, but
messages from the heart.

We view the world through a "filter of the heart."

In psychology, it is said that each person has

schemas (habits of the heart).

It is said that we possess these.

They are like filters of the heart created from experiences in early childhood.

For example,

・I wasn't acknowledged even when I tried my best
・I couldn't rely on others even though I wanted to
・I had to be a "good child"

When you have such experiences,

"I am not valued"
"I won't be loved unless I try hard"

These feelings can remain deep within the heart.

And even after becoming an adult,
when an event touches that filter,

anxiety,
sadness,
anger

can sometimes
well up strongly.

When emotions become strong, the heart has "modes"

In schema therapy, it is believed that
the heart has several "modes."

For example,

Vulnerable Child Mode
a state where sadness and loneliness emerge strongly

Perfectionist Mode
a state of not allowing failure and blaming oneself

Angry Mode
a state of rebelling against unfairness

When past wounds are triggered,
this kind of mode can appear strongly.

And we

"Why am I getting so emotional?"

and end up blaming ourselves.

But in reality,

your heart might be
letting you know,
"This part is hurt."

You don't have to try to erase your emotions.

I used to

"I shouldn't have these feelings,"
"I need to be calmer."

That is how I tried to suppress my emotions.

Especially the emotion of "anger,"
I thought for a long time that it was "something I shouldn't have."

But now, my way of thinking has changed a little.

Emotions

good things
bad things

do not need to be categorized.

Just

"Oh, I see, this is how I am feeling right now."

It is enough to just notice that.

With just that,
your heart will gradually calm down.

Facing your emotions is a journey to know yourself.

Facing your emotions is
not an easy thing.

Sometimes it involves touching upon past wounds or
memories you would rather not recall.

But beyond that,

"I am fine just as I am"

the moments when you can think that
will gradually increase.

Emotions are
not enemies that trouble you.

They are signs that have been
trying to protect you all along.

If you feel

like you are being swayed by your emotions right now,
please stop for a moment

and try listening to the voice of your heart.

There, you will surely find
an important message from yourself hidden away.

And looking back,
there is the "Dark Pot Note" I wrote about in yesterday's article.

Talks about psychology,
talks about loneliness,
talks about death,
and talks about food.

Though they may seem disconnected at first glance,
the broth that ties them together
is surely, I believe, this experience of emotions.

That is why I believe I will continue
to write this slightly mysterious "Dark Pot Note"
from here on out.

Related Articles

Article on the White Bones Essay
(An article where I thought about human sorrow)

Article on Lonely Death
(An article where I thought about loneliness and self-neglect)

Article on Heshiko
(An article where empathy spread triggered by memories of food)

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