Why I Write Comments Even Though I'm Not Good at Starting Conversations #87

I am not good at starting conversations with people.

When I do, I spend the whole day since waking up
psyching myself up, thinking, "I'll talk to them today for sure,"

planning everything from what to say to how they might respond, and my hands are sweating by the time I actually speak.

Someone like me,
if you asked if I can talk to people if it's not in person, of course, that's not the case.

Even on social media, I mostly just watch on YouTube, Instagram, and X, and I have almost never commented to anyone myself.

Even so, I
made one decision when I started note.

For people or articles I think are wonderful,
I will try to leave a comment myself, I decided.

Why did I decide that I wanted to leave comments
when I started note?

It's because
I wanted to connect with people as a person.

For example, when I read an article
and close the page thinking it was wonderful,

the relationship between me and the person who wrote it
ends right there.

But if I leave a comment—

I can convey my thoughts
to the other person.

I thought that was
a very big difference.

I think I started to feel this way
because I became a "creator" myself.

Behind the text,
there is a "person" writing it.

There,
there are that person's thoughts, experiences, and feelings.

Only after I started writing myself
could I truly feel that.

When I encounter a wonderful article,
I started to wonder
what kind of person wrote it.

I touched upon their sensibilities,
and started to think, "This is wonderful," or "I want to be like this person too."
That is precisely why I wanted to

connect with such people, even if just a little.

When I left a comment for the first time,
just like when I talk to people in person,
I was nervous.

I wrote and deleted it many times,
deleted and wrote it—

and finally, I posted the comment.

At that moment,
I felt like I had taken a step forward myself.

I felt like I had properly conveyed
my thoughts to a "person."

Writing is not just a string of characters.

It contains that person's time, experiences,
and feelings leading up to it.

That is why words have "warmth."

Every time I touch that warmth,
I feel a sense of warmth myself.

Just like me,
who is writing this text,

there is a "person"
who writes with their feelings poured into it,

and I want to keep remembering that

from now on.
And,
I want to continue to cherish
my connections with such people.

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