note membership. I was the one who received the gift

Wow...!
I let out a sound when I saw the notification.
I checked the screen over and over, wondering if it was a mistake.

I started my membership on May 26th.

I had been preparing for this day for a long time...
is what I'd like to say, but.

Smooth sailing to GO!!
...that was definitely not the case.

If anything, 'Oh, it's coming, that day...'
was closer to the truth.

Looking back, I felt the same way when I published on Kindle at the end of March.

I was scared.

Would people want this?
Would anyone join?
Maybe what I'm thinking about won't be exciting.
Thinking about it made my heart beat faster.

It felt like if I put it into words, it would become reality,
so perhaps I intentionally left my feelings
in a state of confusion.

The launch date was May 26th.
Since the first month is free,
I thought it would be fine if people joined from June 1st.
That's what I thought.

But, I was still nervous.

It was my day off, but
I felt depressed from the morning and couldn't decide what to do.


But there were people who had been preparing their hearts for it.

That fact, simply,
made me happy.

I couldn't find any meaningful words.
Just, 'Wow...'

As I sent my thanks later, my heart felt very warm.
'I thought you were hanging in there while dealing with various family matters.'
'I didn't hesitate because I wanted to support you.'
That's the kind of message I received.

That I had been seen.

Writing about my family while feeling lost.
Continuing to share while feeling shaky.

It felt like everything was rewarded,
and my heart felt like it was expanding with warmth.

Here, I would like to introduce everyone who gathered the courage to jump into my first membership.

Haruka Minaka (notewriter)san

We became friends because our taste in books is incredibly similar.
Her book recommendations are excellent✨✨
I really respect Haruka-san's unpretentious personality and how she has turned her own life around through effort.
I respect her kindness toward people and the environment, not to mention her family, and her vast knowledge.
She leads people into a wonderful world with love, saying, 'Everyone, come on over!'💕

Reiponsan

The parenting essay queen♡
Scenes that draw you in completely.
Her cute son.
And the sharp, striking ending.
They aren't just articles; they are works of art.
They make me cry. They make me laugh.
I've been moved by them many times.
On top of that, she is incredibly good at teaching how to write essays✨
I recently found out we are the same age and it makes me nervous💕 Hehe

Toerusan

Since our connection started after you participated in a project,
honestly, I never thought you would join.
Toeru-san's writing, with its frank feelings, really touches my heart.
I had a strange experience of getting to know myself by reading Toeru-san's work.
I want to get to know you little by little.
I want you to get to know me too.
That is how I feel😌

Kaze no Boushi (Introspective Essayist)san

They are my writing mentor.
I was able to publish on Kindle because Kaze no Boushi-san was there.
And I have sessions with them every month.
Daily posts, bulletin board updates, monthly Kindle publishing. And planning.
I am currently feeling the preciousness of continuing.
I want to keep following in Kaze no Boushi-san's footsteps✨

Rakurakusan

They are like a soft blanket that gently and fluffily wraps around you✨
Because of Rakuraku-san's personality, any event feels like it's part of a round, warm world.
Previously, the onomatopoeia I wrote in an article,
"tan-tan, fun-fun, ran-ran",
they immediately wrote about in their own note as well.
It was my first experience sharing a sensation, and I was so happy.

Miyu | Person who organizes life's difficultiessan

They have a strong sense of self and are so composed that I just assumed they were an older sister...
While being a Kindle author themselves, they widely introduce the books of other noters.
Every introduction is so thorough, and I can feel their respect for that person.
I truly respect Miyu-san's sincerity and the way they engage with others✨
And, they are a sharp-sensed psychic🤭

Everyone is such a wonderful person.

There are also people whose names are not listed here this time.
And there are those who have said "I'll join next month," and those who are still wondering "what should I do?"😆

So, around here
⇩⇩⇩

I just sent my thoughts of gratitude✨


Membership is a place to enjoy interacting by coming and going.
That is precisely why I want to cherish this time, this very moment.
That is what I think.

May 26th.

It has become a day I will never forget. Even now,
"Which way should I go?"
I am still going right and left every day.

But the name of the membership is "Buranko" (Swing).

It seems that is what I wanted to do😆

Until now, I thought membership was a place where I give something to others.

But as it turns out, it was me who was receiving the warm gift of "support."

Even though I am such an unreliable owner,
even though I am afraid of swaying, I want to try and err as much as I can
so that you can be happy.