If You Had to Score Your Daily Life Right Now - Happy Writing Marathon #61

Life isn't about getting a 100, and today is a 💮 too

The topic for this week's Happy Writing Marathon is,

"If you had to score your daily life right now, what would it be?"

The moment I saw this question,
I involuntarily stopped in my tracks.

To be honest, I have never thought about scoring my life.

So, when I saw this topic,
"Hmm, I don't like this..."
I felt a bit of aversion.

Where did this aversion come from...
I tried looking into my heart for a moment.

That's when I remembered memories of fertility treatment and caregiving.

No matter how hard I tried, it didn't pay off.
Yet, it felt like every day I was being graded only on what I hadn't achieved.

As I accumulated those experiences, before I knew it,
the very phrase "scoring"
had started to feel oppressive.

But after reading the explanation for the topic,
my feelings changed.

The moment I read that sentence, I finally
thought, "In that case, I want to write about it."

Instead of giving it a score,
I will listen closely to my heart right now.

When I thought of it that way,
this question became something completely different.

If I were asked, "How is your daily life right now?", I have only one answer.

Today is a flower mark, you did very well 💮

It's not because it's a 100.

It's not because I'm comparing myself to someone else,
or because I'm doing everything perfectly.

There are days when things don't go as planned.

Even now, with a broken leg,
I am relying on my husband every single day (lol).

Even so, it is precisely because I had this time
that I realized many things.

The scenery I saw because I stopped.
The warmth of relying on others.
The importance of choosing comfort over 'doing my best'.

I used to be someone who often tried to do everything alone,
thinking, 'I have to try harder.'

But now,

the relaxing moments with my family and my beloved dog Maru.
The interactions with wonderful people I met on note.
The fact that I could write the things I love.

In such casual, everyday life,
I feel sufficiently happy.

So for me, the 💮 mark
does not mean '100 points',

'I was able to live like myself today, too.'

It is a small flower mark for myself.

Life is not a test
that someone else grades, is it?

That is why, rather than aiming for 100 points,
I want to keep walking while gently
giving a 💮 to each day.

I will also give a 💮 to the me of the past
who was hurt by the evaluations of others.

'You did a very good job 💮'

I am done with letting someone else's grading
determine my own worth.

What kind of mark
would you give yourself today?
🐶🐱🌈✨🌱🐣⭐
To each their own, let's enjoy the variety.

Ken-san,
thank you for another profound prompt.

Please also check here for answers to past prompts.

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