I felt like I couldn't rest unless I did something🌿

I wanted to get my body back in balance.

But,
it wasn't that I wanted to go to a sauna or do Pilates.

I just wanted to
clear my head or
feel lighter in my body.

1.🫧I thought if I could just get back in balance, I'd feel better.

Before I knew it, the weekend had arrived in a flash.

“Finally, it’s the weekend.”

When I roll my shoulders, they make a cracking sound.

When I get tired, I
go for a massage or
do some exercise.

I find myself thinking, "I have to do something."

Even though my mind and body were exhausted,
I started searching on my smartphone.

2.🌫️But somehow, it felt heavy

I thought about going for a massage, but
they were fully booked.

Well then, how about a head spa?
What about a walk in the park?

Even though a few ideas came to mind,
none of them felt quite right.

I put my phone on the desk and
curled up my body just like that.

My legs feel heavy.
My head feels heavy.

I don't want to move.

But,
I felt like if I didn't do something,
this fatigue wouldn't go away.

3.🪑I tried sitting without doing anything

I look at the scenery outside from the sofa.

The spring-like air and
the smell of warm soil
are carried on the breeze.

For a while,
I was just zoning out.

The scenery outside remained unchanged,

and only the hands of the clock
were moving slowly.

It was just that
the seasons,
quietly made themselves felt.

I closed my eyes,
and felt my body sinking into the sofa.

4.🌿Little by little, the sensation of my body relaxing

I started to feel comfortable, and
gradually, I began to drift off.

A warm breeze.
Soft air.

The tension in my body slowly fades away.

Without thinking about anything,
I just let myself drift somewhere.

A time when I can feel at ease, even without doing anything.

I felt that
perhaps this was what I wanted.

5.🤍 What does it mean to reset?

After a while,
my eyes became clear.

I reach for
a favorite book I bought recently.

I turn the pages,
and slowly follow the words and pictures with my eyes.

In the gentle air,
I was surrounded by the things I love.

Perhaps,
this is the kind of time I wanted to spend.

Maybe finding balance
isn't something so special after all.

🌿If you'd like, I've also written about days when I felt the same way