The turning point that changed me from someone who couldn't, to someone who can speak ꕤ୭*

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“The turning point that changed me from someone who couldn't,
to someone who can speak｡.ꕤ”

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To be precise──

“English as a subject” was what I hated.

Using textbooks,
memorizing grammar,
and rote learning vocabulary.

It was just“English for the sake of getting points on a test”.

To me, it was
just like a math formula.

Memorize.
Apply.

That was it.

So, I could get points on tests.

But──

“I couldn't speak”

Even though I “knew” it,
I “couldn't use” it.

English that was contained only within my head,
and didn't connect to anything.

It was a state of being “all head and no heart,”
where only knowledge kept increasing.

And the result of jumping overseas
while in that state was──

This☟

For the first time back then,

I realized how terrifying
“speaking English” could be.

Yet, strangely enough,

I couldn't bring myself to hate English.

On the contrary,

“I want to be able to speak it”

That desire,
far from fading, only grew stronger.

And now.

The person who finds it most unbelievable

that I am now speaking without any struggle,
is none other than myself.

Why was I able to change?

It must be because,

my “method” was different.

Instead of the typical
“Japanese-style English learning,”

I made English a part of my daily life
starting from what I “love.”

Movies.
Music.
Interacting with people.

Rather than “studying English,”

That was the feeling.

What was especially significant was,

👉 conversations with people

At first, it was scary.

But, I just kept "imitating" the way the people around me spoke,

gathered my courage, and
actually tried using it.

And then,

"Oh, it got across."

That feeling
in that moment.

The accumulation of such small successful experiences,

little by little,
increased my "usable English."

There were no shortcuts to that.

There were no grade skips,
and no miracles.

Just,

falling down,
trying,
and doing it again.

Repeating that over and over.

But at the same time,

"the things I could do kept increasing"

was also exciting.

And above all—

I just,

didn't just want to "be able to speak English"

That alone,
never faded away.

So now, I can say it clearly.

No matter how much you can't do it.

No matter how far away it seems.

This isn't just empty talk,

👉 because that's exactly how it was for me

But──

Just this alone,
wasn't enough to change.

Between "people who become able to speak" and
"people who stay stuck,"

there was a real reason.

And that,

was surprisingly simple.

That story──

will be next time 🌙

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For English Readers

(This is not a direct translation.
It is a condensed version that preserves the core philosophy.)

What made me become someone who could finally speak English

More precisely,
I hated “studying English.”

Memorizing grammar.
Learning vocabulary.
Taking tests.

For me,
it felt like solving math formulas.

So yes, I could get good scores.

But when it came to real conversations—

I couldn’t say anything.

I “knew” English,
but I couldn’t “use” it.

Everything I had learned
stayed only in my head.

Then I went abroad.

And reality hit me.

I couldn’t understand.
I couldn’t respond.
I couldn’t even speak.

That was the moment
I truly realized

how scary it is
when words don’t come out.

But strangely,

I didn’t give up.

Instead,

my desire to speak English
grew even stronger.

Looking back now,

the reason I changed
was simple.

I changed the way I approached it.

Instead of “studying English,”

I started to

Movies.
Music.
Conversations.

And most importantly—

At first, I was scared.

But I listened carefully,
copied what others said,
and tried to use it myself.

Then one day—

“It worked.”

I was understood.

The conversation continued.

That moment changed everything.

Little by little,
I built confidence

through small successes.

There was no shortcut.

No magic.

Just trying, failing,
and trying again.

But at the same time,

it was exciting
to feel myself improving.

Because deep inside,

I didn’t just want to “speak English.”

👉 I wanted to connect with people.

And that feeling
never disappeared.

So now I can say this clearly—

No matter how difficult it feels,

Not because it sounds nice,

but because
I was once there too.

But—

this alone wasn’t enough
to truly change.

There is a reason
why some people move forward

and others stay stuck.

And it’s actually very simple.

I’ll share that
next time 🌙

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