An Ex-Boyfriend Beyond Terrible and Grotesque
It is already July 2026. I suddenly realized that it has been almost a year since I broke up with my ex-boyfriend.
He had told me that he considered me 'more like family than his own family,' and even after we broke up, we somehow kept in touch.
At one point, I even edited a love letter he was writing to a woman he was interested in. (I don't even know what that means.)
Furthermore, on Christmas Eve, he even asked for my advice on what he should do next after he went out for a meal with that same woman.
Because he had poor communication skills and struggled with social interactions, he had very few friends. I knew he had no one else to talk to about these things, so I ended up listening to him.
Each time, I was hurt a little more.
I wondered how long this indescribable relationship would last, but then an event occurred that made me decide to cut ties.
In the middle of May, I received a sudden message in the morning.
I have an announcement:
I've started dating [Name].
I've even told my mother for the first time.
I'll call you again, lol.
We've both told our parents and we'll probably get married within the year or so, lol.
She wants to get married too, lol.
I'll tell you more later, lol.
Everything, lol.
Seeing this message, I felt such intense irritation that I felt like I could lash out at any happy-looking family I saw in the world.
For nearly five years, I changed jobs and moved three times to live with him, as he was a frequent transferee. I spent five years supporting his life, driving him to work early in the morning and preparing his meals.
During those five years, I was treated as if I didn't exist by the people around him over and over again. When his colleagues came over, I had to leave the house and pretend he lived alone, and when his mother asked him over the phone if he had found anyone special, he would of course say no. I told myself it couldn't be helped because we were the same sex, and I endured it, but it was always painful.
And yet, he had already moved forward with marriage plans and reported it to both families for a new girlfriend he had only just met and started dating. And he even reported that to me.
The word 'terrible' doesn't even begin to cover it.
I felt how tactless and grotesque he was.
I realized he didn't even understand why I was angry, and feeling completely cold toward him, I stopped replying from that day on.
We had many fun times over those five years, but looking back, I realized that I had been subjected to such outrageous treatment that my sense of pain had become completely paralyzed.
I want to meet someone warm who will face me properly and whom we can introduce to our respective families.
I felt that strongly once again.