University Entrance Exam Diary | By the 5th Exam, I've Become a Mother Who Can Wait a Little

This is my fifth time experiencing entrance exams.
It started with my eldest daughter's high school entrance exam and has led up to my second daughter's university entrance exam.

I, a mother who used to be so worried that I wanted to get ahead of everything, have changed little by little.
I can't wait perfectly, but children have their own timing.

This is a record of my growth as a parent of an examinee, having realized such things.

This article is the 24th installment of the "Hazuki Family x University Entrance Exam Project | Second Daughter Edition" series.
▼ The previous installment is here

It's my 5th entrance exam

Having become a parent to three children.
This is my fifth time experiencing an "entrance exam."

This university entrance exam for my second daughter will likely be the last.
(Or rather, please let it be the last. Haha)

My eldest daughter's high school and university entrance exams.
My second daughter's high school entrance exam.
My eldest son's high school entrance exam just a few months ago.
(My eldest son went to a high school affiliated with a university, so there is no university entrance exam for him.)

And this time is the final one, my second daughter's university entrance exam.

In this article, I would like to write about how I myself have changed (grown) through these exams.

First, to start with the conclusion.
I've become more composed (haha)

I tend to get ahead of myself out of worry and anxiety, wanting to say things like,

"Why don't you do this?"
"Wouldn't it be better to do it this way?"

But I've become able to endure that kind of interference just a little bit.

Of course.

It's not that I've stopped worrying.
It's not that I don't get anxious.
It's just that I don't voice my worries immediately,

thinking, "This child will think in her own way,"
and
I've become able to take a breath.I believe that is the biggest change in me through these five exams.

The first exam was full of unknowns, and I was anxious

The first exam in our family.
That was my eldest daughter's high school entrance exam.

In the series of my eldest son's high school entrance exam diary I wrote before, I wrote this:

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So, I would unintentionally

"Did you do this?"
"Are you okay? Are you progressing properly?"
"I heard it's better to do it this way"

I would voice my anxiety and say unnecessary things.

Thinking about it now, this wasn't because I didn't trust my child or anything like that.
I think I just wanted to put my own anxiety and worries into words to resolve them.Even though I intended to say it for my child's sake, in reality, I probably just wanted to feel at ease myself.

But the person themselves has their own timing

That said.
Even though I wrote that I've become able to endure getting ahead of myself.

The other day, I said it to my second daughter again.
"Wouldn't it be better to start working on kanji soon?"

My second daughter herself was also concerned about kanji,
"I should start soon..."
she had said.

So I just said it.

But,my second daughter calmly admonished me.

"Don't say things like that right now. I have my own timing. Please stop with that kind of pressure."

......Right.
After I said it, I thought so too.

What should be prioritized now.
What kind of schedule she is using to study.
What she has managed to handle, and what she hasn't yet.

Only my second daughter herself knows that.
My second daughter is just moving forward steadily at her own pace.

I was looking at only a tiny part of my second daughter, getting anxious on my own, and worrying on my own.
And I just ended up voicing those things.

I can't wait perfectly, but

If it were true.

"I am a veteran of 5 entrance exams. I have become a mother who no longer gets ahead of herself!"
I would like to write that coolly.

......I haven't become that perfect(Haha)

Even now, there are things I want to say, and in fact, there are times when I do say them.

However.
What's different from the past is

knowing that behind the words I unintentionally say, like "Why don't you do this?" or "Wouldn't it be better to do it this way?", lies my own anxiety and worry.
So, now, I have increased the number of times I stop before speaking.

In fact, the number of times I voice them has also decreased.

I think this is the biggest change in me through these five exams.
Entrance exams are not a time when only the children grow.



The parents watching from the side also worry, fail, reflect, and change little by little.
Our family's entrance exams, which started with my eldest daughter's high school entrance exam.Now, at the 5th time,


I have finally become a mother who can wait a little.I wanted to write about that.

This article was the 24th installment of the "Hazuki Family x University Entrance Exam Project | Second Daughter Edition" series.
▶ Next time, the 25th installment is here
▶ The 1st installment ishere


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