Anxiety one hour after waking up, a day it returned for the first time in a while. Cleaning my parents' house and taking out 8 bags of trash
Adjustment Disorder Recovery Diary Day 27
July 19, 2026
How many days has it been? That "anxiety" I had almost forgotten returned again this morning.
8 bags of trash. I didn't think I could be this active after the anxiety I felt an hour after waking up, but I am exhausted.
🌿 Today's physical condition (July 19, 2026)
Physical condition 5/10, mood 5/10. Went to bed around 22:30 (took 2mg of eszopiclone), woke up twice during the night (2:00, 6:00, for the bathroom), woke up at 7:00.
Lethargy and fatigue were strong from the morning, tinnitus was louder than usual, and I felt hypersensitive. No headache or nausea. For the first time in a while, I felt anxiety one hour after waking up.
⚖️ Today's record
Weight 68.2kg / Body fat percentage 21.5% / Blood pressure 107-79mmHg / Pulse 67 bpm / Body temperature 36.50°C
✅ Things I did today
Walking & jogging / Typing / Cleaning my parents' house
🌸 Three good things
① I was able to go walking & jogging
② I was able to clean my parents' house
③ I received a comment on note
🍀 Reflection
I went to bed early last night, but I woke up twice during the night, leaving me with lethargy and fatigue from the morning. I also feel the tinnitus is stronger than usual. I felt anxiety one hour after waking up for the first time in a while, but it calmed down after walking and jogging. Still, it was a day with more fatigue than usual.
I cleaned my parents' house from 15:00 and managed to take out a total of 8 bags of trash. I was surprised to see my weight was 67.4kg when I finished cleaning, but I felt a bit dizzy, so I want to be careful about heatstroke.
I will not push myself today and will try to spend the day one step at a time according to my physical condition. I will continue to recover without rushing and by valuing my own pace. 🌿
There are many things about mental illnesses like adjustment disorder and depression that you don't understand until you experience them yourself, and I feel they are often hard for those around you to understand. This past half-year has been a time where I have felt that firsthand.
If there is someone out there who feels "alone" just like I did—today, someone is watching over you. I hope this article can be a way to convey that.
🌸 To those reading for the first time
This recovery diary is a realistic record of my daily progress as I move forward little by little from adjustment disorder. I have summarized the background and thoughts behind why I started sharing these posts in my [Self-Introduction Article]. I would be happy if you could read that as well.
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