🌟Continuing My Self-Introduction ⑤ | Life Can Be Re-edited from Age 45 🌸 Flowers, AI, and Tarot Moved My Future

Good evening, this is Miki❤️

This article is the 5th in a 5-part self-introduction series
“Continuing My Self-Introduction | Until I Reached ‘Living Every Day with Excitement and Joy!’”
of 5.

After turning 45,
I was finally able to ask myself,
“How do I really want to live?”

From there,
the re-editing of my life began little by little.

1. I was collecting qualifications to fill my anxiety 🫤

Even for a while after joining my current company,
I was working while taking medication 💊.
I didn't tell anyone around me about my illness,
just trying to get through each day 💦.

However, due to a company reorganization, I lost my health again
and even took two months off.

When things started to settle down after that,
what was actually driving me
was not “passion” but “anxiety.”

With those feelings, I also tried matchmaking.
But I realized something along the way 💡:

I was acting not out of
“I want to be with this person,”
but out of
“I want to eliminate my future anxiety.”

I also took many lessons.
Flower arrangement, Kodo (incense ceremony), calligraphy,
Pilates, translation, TOEIC.

I also obtained qualifications one after another:
Flower arrangement instructor,
Herbarium instructor,
Candle instructor,
Lecan flower instructor,
and even Type 1 Health Officer at my company.

2. The answers I looked for outside were nowhere to be found

I understand now.
It wasn't that I wanted the knowledge or the qualifications themselves.

If I learned more,
if I had more qualifications,
if I could do more things...

3. Flowers 🌸, Tarot, and AI connected the scattered parts of me

The turning point was
learning about intuition, tarot, neuroscience, and the mechanics of emotions📚
In the process, I finally realized💡

What you want to do is
not something you go outside to find
nor is it something you getby becoming someone else

From that point on, I stopped adding more certifications

What started instead was

Now, while working in sales and IT at a company,
I hold dream vision courses using AI
and AI x Tarot workshops on an irregular basis
Flowers🌸, words, tarot, and AI,

they are all connected within me.

4. What I want to create from now on is a "place where you can feel excited"

What I want to create from now on is

a place where people who don't know what they want to do
can stop by with peace of mind

I want to create a place where such people
can drop in,feel a little better,
and go home

Lecrin flowers, flower arrangements,
calligraphy, reading circles, study groups, concerts,
it's a salon where various "likes" meet
and life begins to move little by little

5. Conclusion

Over the past five parts,
I have written about my life so far.

Looking back,
things that seemed like detours,
and even the painful times,
were all leading me to who I am today.✨

So, if there is anyone right now who isfeeling lost,please know that
you don't have to rush to find a big answer.
It's okay.👌

Start by findingthe small things you loveor
the things that make you feel at ease.That is enough to begin with.

If there is something you would like to try
if you were no longer anxious...

Thank you so much for reading this far.😊

In my future notes,
I will share tips on bringing excitement back
between work and life,
written in my own way.

Thank you for reading
until the end.🌟

If any part of today's content resonated with you,
I would be happy if you could leave a comment,
even just a few words,
like "this part left an impression on me"
or "I have had a similar experience."❤️

Series List

• Episode 1 | "I have nothing" was just a belief — My Origin —

• Episode 2 | To the me who believed "you're clumsy" for decades. You can remove the labels from childhood when you grow up.

• Episode 3 | Working hard was my value. From my longing for overseas to my divorce at 30.

• Episode 4 | The day I couldn't breathe on the plane. Facing depression and graduating from the hospital at 49.

• Episode 5 | You can re-edit your life starting at 45. Flowers, AI, and Tarot moved my future.