Effexor Discontinuation 9 Months | Deevigo Reduced to 5mg | Depression Remission 4 Months | Treatment 2 Years 6 Months

Medication Dosage

Effexor Discontinuation
Sleep medication Deevigo (7.5mg → 5mg)

Number of Consultations

36th Consultation

This is what the past month was like

Last month, I slept constantly, to the point where even I thought, 'I'm definitely sleeping too much.'
Following that trend, I reduced my Deevigo dosage again this month.
Finally going from 7.5mg to 5mg.

For the first few days after reducing the dose, I slept surprisingly well.
Deeply, for over 8 hours, without a single thought.
I thought, 'This might actually work.'

But, it happened after all.
Sudden mid-sleep awakenings.
Sleep duration was under 7 hours, and sometimes even around 6 hours.
I'd wake up in the middle of the night, get a strange craving for something sweet, and head straight to the convenience store.
I'd buy gummies or ice cream and eat them in the middle of the night.
Ah, the usual pattern.

Since it didn't happen when I reduced it to 7.5mg,
because I had hoped that 'maybe I could sleep comfortably even on 5mg',
I was a little disappointed.

However, that 'usual withdrawal symptom' also settled down in about two weeks.
I'm really glad about that.

Whether it was the effect of the dose reduction or simply accumulated fatigue,
honestly, I didn't feel much like doing strength training or CrossFit this past month.
Even so, I continued without taking a break.
It's strange, but once I start, I end up enjoying it.

My body is definitely changing.
It's slow, but I can do more things, and the weight I can handle has gradually increased.
On the other hand, there are still overwhelmingly more things I can't do.
I still have so much to learn about how to use and move my body.

But I feel that's okay.
It's fine to just get better at it little by little, slowly.

Lately, this might be becoming a joy in my life.

As always, I feel like I'm dying after CrossFit.
I feel like throwing up, it's painful, and I can't stand for a while.
Even so, strangely, it feels good.
That sensation, as if I'm touching my own soul, is irresistible.

Come to think of it, there were three happy things.

First.
I passed the Real Estate Notary exam. The passing score was 33 points.
Honestly, I'm glad.
I learned so much from both the studying and the exam itself.

I intend to keep studying something new and taking exams every year from now on.
I feel this is the most efficient way to relearn how to use my brain now that my depression is in remission.

Second.
'There's a gap between the scenery I see with my own eyes and the photos I take with my smartphone,'
'and I don't know how to bridge that difference.'

When I happened to mention that to a photographer I like,
I received these words.

"The fact that you can feel that sense of discomfort is proof that you are already starting to get better."

I felt like nothing had changed, but
it seems my sensibilities and skills are actually evolving.

Third.
A DM that suddenly arrived on X.
"I was watching your YouTube channel. I'm glad you're doing better."

That's right, I have gotten better.

Having that said to me again in someone else's words
just made me happy.

I took the Rental Real Estate Management exam.
I couldn't study at all. I was burned out from the Real Estate Notary exam.
I guessed on a lot of the questions, so I probably didn't pass.

Well, if I fail, I'll make it a goal for next year.

The tinnitus, which is a withdrawal symptom from stopping Effexor,
is still lingering.

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