Full of anxiety. Is this HSP? A developmental disorder? Or perhaps INTP?

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Perhaps due to my various traits, I feel like I easily fall into heavy anxiety whenever I express my opinions.

I get caught in an abnormally negative loop of thinking.

It makes me extremely nervous to throw anything other than short, affirmative words at the common sense of the world.

Even when I think I haven't said anything that would clearly cause a backlash or used inflammatory phrasing, I still don't know how people will react, so I get nervous. (There's no guarantee I haven't made a careless mistake, and I often have typos.)

But maybe it's just my nature;
if one side (common sense as a judgment) is established, my thoughts automatically move to establish others as well. (Such as counter-arguments, justifications, opinions that deviate somewhat from the norm, or thoughts that thread through the gaps.)

I can't help it, because no one gives me an answer or an opinion that fixes my perception solely on the accepted opinion, or a counter-argument that I can actually accept.
(There are times when I cannot be convinced by the world's reasoning.Now that I can potentially learn about the opinions of experts in detail through things like ChatGPT, this might decrease in the future, but...

Still, perhaps because there were many rigid people around me, the perception that thinking of or finding anything other than the 'proper' opinion is a waste and strange has been ingrained in me, and I often lack confidence in my own opinions.

In the first place, since what is 'correct' changes depending on the person, I sometimes get lost in my thoughts, wondering what is actually correct, which makes interacting with people scary.

Perhaps because of that, I get nervous when I write opinions that might not be considered 'proper.'
(Even if someone somewhere else has said something similar, it's likely a minority view in the world, and I feel that humans are equipped with the recognition that 'few in number = potentially incorrect opinion' in order to survive in a collective society...)


I try not to worry about the hearts on note, but I still feel down when there is no reaction. That's probably the same for everyone, though...
It's not linked to other social media, and I know it doesn't amount to much, but those thoughts seem to just fly away.

An era where opinions in various directions are permitted

(I will add the omission that this is as long as it is not violence or something that clearly makes people uncomfortable.)

Freedom of expression is a recognized right even under Japanese law, so in truth, I should be able to express any opinion without fear, and I would like to believe that there was meaning in writing this article just by having people see it.

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