Living with Restrictions | My First Participation in the 'I Was Envious' note Positive Awards✨

Honestly,
I didn't think I could be on the side that participates.

I was always just watching.


I was on the side of just thinking, 'That's nice,'
about the people writing wonderful articles
and the people who were connected.

That is why I participated for the first time in
'🍀The 3rd Shine! note Positive Awards'

⬇️A positive article by the organizer, Haruka Hoshino

Until now, I have

lived within restrictions,
cared about what others think,
and compared myself to those around me.

In my childhood,
I had freedom within a box created by my parents.

If I tried to step outside of that, I would be stopped;
that was the kind of environment it was.

I lived my life with the feeling of constantly testing
how far I was allowed to go.

Before I knew it,
I had become overly concerned
with the eyes and reactions of those around me...

Even after becoming a working adult,
even after getting married,
the presence of my parents was always close by...

Being the eldest son.
My father passed away right after I got married,
and my elderly mother was left alone.

Due to various overlapping circumstances,
I couldn't make the choice to leave home,
and my life with my mother continues even now.

In the midst of that life, I could see
the sparkling world outside.


I was so envious!

Child-rearing began,
and I lost even more of my own time,
but what lies at the root of me even before that is

being unable to do anything while worrying about what others think
in the midst of unavoidable restrictions,
just comparing myself and feeling envious.

I always write in my articles about


changing perspectives,
ways of thinking that look forward,
and being true to oneself, but

this isn't because I have mastered it,
but rather, every time I feel negative emotions,
I face myself
and tell myself these things.

Even someone like me,
no, because it's me, there is light I can see and things I can convey.

Because I kept writing such articles
and facing my own feelings,
I was able to take a new step forward.

Until now, I was envious,
but I was just watching the note Positive Awards.

When I actually participated,
there were many kind and warm people around me.

Indeed, even as I continue to post daily,
I feel that kind and reassuring sensation.

Connections are a wonderful thing, aren't they?✨

I felt like I had gotten a little closer
to the place I was looking at with envy back then,
and it made me a little happy.

I am grateful to
Haruka Hoshino for creating the opportunity
for such kind and warm connections😊

The articles I keep writing are
a realistic record of myself, and
they
also serve as hints on how to think
for someone who might be you.

They might be trivial, but they are relatable.
They might be small, but they are reproducible.

Just like me,
even with many restrictions, I want to live in my own way!!

If you are one of those people,
please take a look at my project participation article here

and read my magazine as well😊

Also, the
note Positive Award
I participated in this time
had many kind and warm people, and was overflowing with positivity✨

Please do read the articles
by the participants as well☺️

Once again, everyone's articles are wonderful☺️✨