Day 2 of tackling [I can't take it anymore!] through entertainment streaming: The wide-eyed young lady faces her procrastination habit

🌱 A word before starting [up to 100 characters] 🌱

Continuing from yesterday, I will tackle something scary for just a little bit.
The fact that my 'must-dos' and 'want-to-dos' have piled up in my head like the trash heaps in Wall-E, and feeling like doing just a little bit won't change anything, might actually be the biggest cause of the [fear].

✨✨ Today's scary things ✨✨

・5 minutes: Tackle that thing
・5 minutes: Focus on my body
・5 minutes: Clear up around the table


✨✨ Live commentary ✨✨

Um...

《5 minutes have passed》

Huh? Wait?

Oh, my, is it already over?

Right after waking up, I tackled that most scary thing, but the 'difficulty of getting started' had become so light that I fell over in surprise.

Hey, have you heard...?
Gasp! Oh no, this is no time for gossip!!

《5 minutes have passed》

Gasp... huh...?
Oh, how mysterious... have I already finished focusing on my body too?
What on earth is happening today??

W... wait.
Could this be... am I already in the enemy's clutches?!?!

The reason the difficulty was abnormally low was a clevertrapto make me take on a dungeon as broad as [clearing up around the table]!!! To think that someone like me would make such a rookie mistake...!!!

Well, if it's come to this, I have no choice but to charge in for the sake of my honor.

Yaaaah!!!! 🕳️

《15 minutes have passed》

I don't care!
I'm on a roll right now❣❣

Look! This magnificent turn 💃🏻

Nailed it❣❣❣❣

( #whatareyoueventalkingabout )

✨✨ Reflection ✨✨

Day 2 of 'tackling things I've been procrastinating on' (lol), which has now turned into a dungeon crawl by a wide-eyed beautiful girl, where no one knows how it ended up like this.

・Points for reflection

Even though I said it myself yesterday, I failed at 'setting simple tasks'.

【Clear off the area around the table】
I think it's fine for people who are told what to do, but in my case, it was a total chaotic mess.
To begin with, the area around the table was a collection of things where I was lost, thinking, 'What should I do with this?'

Once I started, 15 minutes passed, but the resistance I felt before starting was incredible😱

🌱 The important thing is to make sure the next 15 minutes don't end up being a month away (lol)
🌱 The 'just a little bit' strategy is exactly why you can gradually make progress.

・Today's realization
I have a side of me that is intensely bad at focusing on one task, and I often have many things going on at the same time. As a result, even though I've done a lot of things, the 'feeling of having done nothing' becomes very strong.
By consciously focusing on doing something for 5 minutes, the 'feeling of having done something' increases, and my sense of satisfaction goes up!

Reward =
Writing as much as I want about what I like (lol)

First of all, BGM

I'm tired.
I want to sleep.
I'm scared to face it.
…I think there is such a thing as a 'state of the body' that says these things.
The posture, facial expression, way of breathing, physical condition, and what you eat at such times... all of those are part of a set, a 'state of the body that cannot stand up'.

Let's assume that the exact opposite of that is the state of doing physical training.
The 'posture of facing' and mental strength to confront the things within yourself that are about to give up or some kind of enemy.posture of facingThe 'state of the body that faces' something, trying to overcome it.
The strength to grit your teeth and stand up firmly even while being crushed by the burden you carry only wells up if you can make the 'choice to live'.

I, who have lived with the feeling of 'not wanting to live' for so long, sometimes go to get whipped by a personal trainer to forcibly summon that kind of underlying strength, but every time, I feel like my tear ducts are going to collapse from the pain of the 'choice to live'.
(I wrote about this in detail before, so I'll post the article here ⇓)

Even though I've already reached the point where I want to live, when I use my body in a way that 'faces' things, I can feel deep down that there is a sense of fear residing in that posture itself.
Oh my, it's an impossible game, isn't it? ❤
I definitely won't lose, you know 😆💋

Thank you for reading.