Thank you for 700 followers. ── A record of standing while broken in this place, and for those who will come hereafter
Before I knew it, my note followers had exceeded 700.
To be honest, it's not like I did a fist pump and thought, "Alright, I hit 700!"
Rather,
the quiet surprise and gratitude that the number of people reading this far has increased is greater.
This note is not
✔ a place to write about positive success stories, nor
✔ a place to spread cheer.
It began as a record of a person in their 30s who, while breaking down, continues to live, work, and maintain a family.
Even so,
"I am the same,"
"You put into words the feelings I couldn't express,"
I have received such voices many times, and that is how I have been able to continue this far.
Truly, thank you very much.
What I have consistently written about in this note
Looking back at the articles so far, the theme has always been the same.
The night I was already at my limit, even though nothing had happened
The day I started to break down after continuing to say "I'm fine"
The story of how my body and mind broke down first, even though I should have been managing both work and family
In other words,
the reality that "the more capable you are, the more quietly you break down."
I want this note to be not
"a place for people who can't try hard," but
"a place for people who have already tried hard enough to rebuild themselves."
For first-time visitors | Articles I want you to read first
Here, for those who "found this note recently,"
I have left a few articles recommended as an entry point.
🔹 ① The most read article
What I realized while breaking down, having lived as a "functional person"
This is the story of how I realized that my emotions had disappeared somewhere as a result of continuing to carry roles, expectations, and responsibilities.
It is one piece that is close to the "origin" of this note.
🔹 ② Articles read on nights when the heart feels heavy
The story of a night when I was already at my limit for no apparent reason
→
There is nothing more painful than suffering without knowing the reason.
This is an article that will make you feel, "I wasn't the only one."
🔹 ③ Practical articles that are often saved
[Saved Version] A "Balance Inspection Checklist" to check when your heart feels heavy
→
Rather than emotional arguments,
this is a practical article for quietly checking "where things are falling apart right now."
Many people have added it to their "read later" list.
🔹 ④ Articles on perspectives for rebuilding one's life
The "reading order" for a broken 30-something to realistically rebuild their life
→
For those tired of motivation, willpower, and self-help,
I wrote about how "there is an order to recovery."
A honest take on the number 700
The number 700 followers,
from an influencer's perspective, is by no means large.
However,
someone is reading this text on a difficult night
when I think of that, this number feels very significant.
This note is not a place for:
・Perfect answers
・The shortest route to success
・Positive quotes
to be placed.
A record of the journey of trying to rebuild while still broken,
I will continue to leave here honestly.
I will continue to write here
Among the 700 people are:
✔ People who happened to stop by
✔ People who press the "like" button every time
✔ People who support me with comments
I know there are people here with all sorts of different levels of connection.
Any way you choose to engage is perfectly fine.
“I feel like I can read this today,”
“This piece of writing is just right for tonight.”
If I can continue to be a place where you can
return whenever you need to in moments like those, that is more than enough.
Once again,
thank you so much for reading this far.
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I am Hayato, a man living while lost between family and work.
I look forward to your continued support.