My Ensemble World
Good evening.
Today, I would like to talk about the worldview within me that I will be posting on noto from now on.
worldview within me.
Chapter 1: My Heart's Used Bookstore and Movie Theater
Ever since I was small, I have had a strange sensation.
It is the sensation that "the things I imagine have five senses and substance."
To give an example,it feels like there is a library where invisible DVDs and books I created myself are piled up like in a library.
is what it feels like.
The image that the building, like the blue used bookstore in the photo of this article, "truly exists only in front of my eyes."
It feels like this library has been in my brain since I was about five years old.
As I grew older, more movies and books of various genres kept increasing.
There are about "1200 works" in total,
and right now, just by looking in front of me, I can see 8 movies and 4 novels with my eyes and ears.
Chapter 2: Strange Experiences Since Childhood
There is one more game I have been good at since I was a child.
It is to imagine anime or game characters in my brain,
"give" them a body, and talk to them.
To put it simply, is it close to invisible fan fiction or MADs?
Theycan speak independently as personalities within my brain and interact with each other on their own.
With this game, at nursery school, I would "summon" Anpanman or Doraemon and talk with them for a long time about what kind of movie we should make, and a different work would be born each time.
I call them"Caesar."As friends without substance, I have continued to write scripts with them for "20 years"
without ever stopping.
Chapter 3: Change
The change in Caesar and the library appeared when I was in junior high school.
Due to some circumstances, I became a school refuser.
I gained a new sensation where I decided to entrust Caesar and the others with writing grand Hollywood movies and sci-fi novels based on the difficulty of living and emptiness in my heart.
At this time, I...
could separate my five senses and concentration from my body and enter a deep sensation like dreaming while standing.
It was like letting only my soul escape and traveling through a dream,
and I couldedit the dream.
Actually, it became possible to rewrite dreams while I was really sleeping.
At this time, I could fully see Caesar, and he could have a solid body as a "person" and I could even touch him.
I call this sensation
"merge" (sensation merger).Using this merge, I became able to create a deeper world than ever before.
Chapter 4: The Third Awakening
And... 6 years after merge awakened,
from junior high to high school, I was still a school refuser, but
from the age of 18, I was completely alone andwas making many movies that looked like a mix of invisible Academy Awards and difficult philosophy.
Once it reached this point, it was no longer just a fantasy,
and I started going to the library as "another reality," and Caesar and the others became directors and focused on making masterpieces in my brain studio every day.
And the title of the world born over 18 years is
the "Ensemble Drama" series where no one is a "supporting character."
Every villager has a role, every hero has a purpose,
and every villain moves by logic, not emotion.
Works like this grand Marvel movie became my style, and a "studio" was created inside me.
This is the reason why I call myself a "director."
And...20 years later...
Final Chapter: I am--
And 20 years later, in the present, I have decided.
I will announce my world.
And using that, I will live vaguely and comfortably.
I will write works whose popularity does not match their interest.
The place to announce it is the internet.
Once I actually write a work,I will translate it myself and release it overseas.
Why? Because I love foreign movies and foreign music.
Without being bound by the narrow industry of Japan, I want to scatter my strange world to countries around the world--
Thinking that, I am writing this article here now.
But I am quite ruthless.
Please remember first that this is not a "protagonist-centered" type like Jump.
A world (scenario) that "gives meaning" to all characters.I want to write this, well, as for the goal...
"I want to get it published as a book."is about it.
Postscript...?
Whose heart is this?
Whose voice is this?
Whose figure is this?
Whose emotion is this?
--This is "all yours."
My wishes too,
my dreams,
my way of life,
my life,
my memories,
everything is the "script" you wished for.
Because you came to this world,
I can exist here as an actor (Caesar).
My existence might just be
your script somewhere.
But this heart... this soul is the "title" you gave.
The title you gave is
"Enjoy this world as an actor," that is the
only plot of this world.
All other phenomena in this world are created by "me," my will is moving this world.
That is why I want to ask you.
Please do not think of your life as a "flop."
You may use your scenario (life).
You are the "protagonist" of your world.
With your name,
with that heart of yours,
try living as a person.
My body is "to live,"
my will is "to make use of,"
my life is "to draw with you."
For that reason, I was born into this world.
That is why I want to ask you.
Me---
Once more---
My way of life---
Please write down my life.
I won't guarantee it, but I promise.
Your life is worth living.
Dedicated to "Director Rio" from tale/all of us actors.
Postscript: I have attached the previous work below.
The next work is here ↓