In my 50s. A story about how the '10 things I want to do this year' I set on New Year's Day ended up binding me

This time, I'll write on the theme of
■ Looking back on the past six months

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[Jointly operated magazine 'Note Club for those in their 50s']
's June theme post.

Good morning!
I'm Nagiyu 😊

First, let's look back at my
[New Year's resolutions] and [10 things I want to do this year] that I set on New Year's Day...

[10 things I want to do this year]

1. Care Stress Counselor certification (March)

2. Elderly Care Stress Counselor certification (July)

3. Mental Care Psychologist certification (November or February)

4. note (3 or more paid articles)

5. Guitar (songs, instrumentals, improvisation)

6. Read novels (2 or more books)

7. Continue morning and evening exercise

8. Spend time without any major injuries or illnesses

9. Learn with my children

10. Be kind to my family

Hmm...

...

What on earth was I writing?! Haha

...The economy is doing too well! Haha

But,
I can't just pretend it didn't happen,

so looking back at it briefly...

I was able to obtain the 'Care Stress Counselor' qualification for number 1✨✨✨

Besides that,

the guitar for number 4,

and the note for number 5

have been kept up, albeit modestly.

As for the others...

Well... haha

To borrow the words of Manager Rira,

'You've actually done quite a bit, haven't you!' haha

(Kansai dialect arrangement)

Anyway...

I'll stop looking back at them one by one! Haha

These [10 things I want to do this year] were set on New Year's Day...

'New Year's Day is the time to plan the year'
as they say.

To be honest,
this is the first time in my 50 years of life
that I've made a plan for the year on New Year's Day like this! Haha

That's right.

Yes.

Making plans for the year,

Total beginner. Lol

Since New Year's Day...
No, ever since the end of last year...

Taking advantage of being driven by anxiety about the future... lol?

Saying things like taking care of my body,
while saying it with my mouth...

Behind the scenes,
I was working both my body and mind to the bone!

I originally worked at a black company,
and even though I complained about it,

I myself

became the biggest 'black company'! Lol

And so,

the 'Elderly Care Stress Counselor' certification at number 2

and the 'Mental Care Psychologist' certification at number 3

are,

put on hold for now!!!

The biggest reason is,

that I was diagnosed with

'ulcerative colitis'in April.

I think I'll take it easy on 4 through 10 too...

Instead of being so rigid...
I wish I could just be a bit more relaxed... (desire)

My unconscious 'behavioral patterns'...
In the Enneagram,

Type 1 <The Reformer>

was what I was.

...I reformed too much! Haha

For the most part, there is no need to
reform yourself to the point of breaking!

Studying to get the 'Care Stress Counselor'
qualification...

Of course, I did it because I wanted to, but
finding spare time to study when I had none,
I probably had a fair amount of stress...

And with that said,

a qualification is ultimately

nothing more than a 'symbol'.

Therefore,
there is no need to be too obsessed with it.

Just like I did before,
it's fine to
read books at my own pace.

Even if I do get the qualification,
there is no need to rush.

Even if I change myself,
it's fine to take it easy...

I've rethought that
maybe that's just fine.

Working hard for the future isn't bad, but...

if you are overly conscious of the 'future',
you end up binding the 'present'...

What I want to cherish is
'the present' more than 'the future'.

Maybe I started thinking this way
because I got sick.

Honestly,
I'm feeling down about getting sick...

But,
if I just keep feeling down,
my life won't be any fun...

Working hard for the future is
actually something I like...

That's fine in its own way, but...

I want to relax my shoulders more...

I want to make myself happy......

So,
for the remaining half of the year...

Or rather,

from now on... I guess......

I'll do the things I think of 'wanting to do' at that moment...

It's okay to be fluid...

I won't turn the things I 'want to do' into obligations...

I won't be bound...

Besides,
it's okay if my feelings waver......

I'll probably waver again. lol

The Enneagram
probably won't change that easily. lol

I'll understand that too...

And on top of that,

at each and every moment,

I want to be honest with my 'current' feelings😊

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[Self-Introduction] The reality of home rehabilitation sites | How to protect your own heart | 50s | Physical Therapist

👤 NAGI-u Profile

50s / Physical Therapist / 10 years in home rehabilitation / 20 years of experience as a physical therapist /
Care Stress Counselor
After changing careers from an engineer, I have been fascinated by 'rehabilitation of the human heart and body' for 20 years.

[Hobbies] Guitar
[Posting Themes]
✅ 'Care for the heart of the caregiver / How to protect it'
✅ 'Digging into myself through words'
✅ 'Things I felt at home visit sites'
✅ 'A life-sized way of living from your 50s'