Thinking about my note | 3-month anniversary on note

Don't your icon and your post content clash?

That's what a reader told me.

Seriously?

Admittedly, my recent posts have been relatively cheerful.
I almost never complain about any specific things.
Let alone post anything inflammatory just to stir up trouble.

However, my icon wascompletely negativein tone.

My first note post was abouta certain voice actor's affair.
Maybe that icon was appropriate at the time.

Since then, I've written quite a bit of rambling personal opinion, and I thinkthe article I currently have pinned at the topis also relatively consistent with this icon.

So, what about my recent articles?

I'm incredibly happy thanks to my favorite character.

EspeciallyUltraman. I never expected to fall into this rabbit hole. Seriously, what happened? Even thoughBaltan was so scaryto me. I even made a magazine for it.

No, it's a good thing. Being happy is the best. But it certainly doesn't match the icon. If anything, it doesn't even match my handle name. Where did the troubled woman go?
(Though maybe my love for my favorite character is just twisted in a way I'm not aware of...)

Of course, I want to write articles about how fun it is to support my favorite idols, and I'm very happy when I'm writing about them, but I think what I originally wanted to write about was more along the lines ofmy personal opinions. Like this, for example ↓

Once my excitement for supporting my idols settles down a bit, I wonder if these kinds of articles will increase again. (They are increasing a little bit even now.) I wrote about this when it was my
birthday, but honestly, I never thought I wouldend up posting this frequently, so I'm honestly surprised by this change myself. At first, I thought it would be a more gloomy, self-deprecating note.

Right now, I'm not a positive enough person to share positive thoughts, but I also feel like there's no need to go out of my way to share negative things either.

Even when I have "annoying" things happen in my daily life, I think it would be nice if I could share them in an interesting way, even if I am a bit twisted, rather than just complaining.

The reason I've come to think that way is because there are people who read my posts.

People who call my favorite clothes "cute," people who empathize with me by saying "that's a good show/game," people who wander in from the back alleys of note asking "what are you talking about?," or people who just happen to stop by while passing through.

I started this just hoping my long-time friends would read it, but now it's been thrown into the ocean of the internet, and more people than I imagined are saying it's "interesting." It's an amazing thing.

The story is getting bigger and bigger, so I should wrap it up soon.

The backward-looking me, the me who gets excited about my idols, the me who is bad at socializing, the me who is a pushover and falls into fandoms easily—all of it put together is me, 'Kojirase Arasa OL Rii'.

I'm sure I'll still lose my way, but I want to build up my own kind of note little by little.

My goal is to bean interesting woman who lives on note.

I wanted to talk a bit more about "writing," so I'll do that in a separate article.

And so (?), Imade a minor change to my icon! It's not a complete overhaul, but I put a little bit of positive feeling into it. The face is tilted slightly upward, and the colors are a bit brighter.

I haven't gotten around to things like magazine images, so those will stay as they are for a while. Though, saying that, they might stay that way forever. I do like them as they are, after all.

Also, to celebrate 3 months of continuing note, I have started an Instagram.

It's Instagram, which I quit after 2 months previously (please refer to past articles for the details), but I'd like to try doing it a bit better this time. I'm thinking of posting lots of photos here that I couldn't fit into my notes. The update frequency might not be that high, but please take a look if you'd like.
Instagram account: @ree_eee30

On X (formerly Twitter), which I've been using for a while, I post update reports and previews. Please follow me there as well if you'd like.
X account: @ree_eee30

I've linked both to note, so you should be able to jump to them from the top screen. Please check them out.