Second viewing of the film 'Michael'. The moment he accepted his 'Destiny'

I went to see the film 'Michael'. This was my second time watching it.
Beyond being a mere musical biopic, this film feels like a gaze into the trajectory of a human soul.
I was surprised to find that the points that resonated with my heart were completely different between the first and second viewings.

During my previous viewing, I was strongly struck by the conflict Michael faced at the boundary between what he could 'control' and what he could not.
His struggle to protect his inner realm—the only thing he could govern by his own will—while being tossed about by 'external forces beyond his control,' such as the media frenzy and his father's dominance.
His 'liberation from gravity' (the moonwalk and zero gravity) as a rebellion against a harsh fate.
In his struggle to maintain mental balance while possessing absolute talent, I sensed a heavy question posed to us who live in an absurd reality.

However, this second time, what pierced my heart most deeply was the episode where he suffered severe burns during a Pepsi commercial shoot and wandered on the brink of death.
By facing death, Michael's view of life and death changed dramatically.
And he began to accept the harsh fate given to him quietly, yet with firm resolve.

This determination was most symbolically expressed in these lines:

"I have to shine my light spread love and joy to heal."
(I have a mission to shine my light, spread love and joy, and heal people.)
"That's my destiny."
(That is my destiny.)

I believe the moment he uttered these words was the definitive moment he accepted his own fate.
The moment he realized his own significance beyond being just an entertainer—the mission to 'heal people'.
To love and accept the fate given to oneself.
Not to escape from it, but to transform it into light with one's own power.
The purity and strength of that resolve were conveyed directly through the very sound of the English lines.

Why did this scene resonate with me so much this time?
It is because it overlapped deeply with my own experience.

There was a time when I, too, was diagnosed with a malignant tumor (neuroendocrine tumor) in my colon and realistically became conscious of 'death'.
Humans will surely die someday.
When faced with that unavoidable, absolute fate, a clear view of life and death was formed within me.

I actually believe it is thanks to this malignant tumor that I was able to step down from the front lines at the milestone of 60 and decide to retire.
Because I faced the possibility of death, I was liberated from the social roles and noise I had carried until then, and I became determined to live the rest of my life according to my 'inner realm'.

Just as the burn accident was for Michael, that illness was for me the greatest turning point in accepting the 'fate' of how to live the remaining time of my life.

A view of life and death born from being conscious of death.
Just as Michael realized his 'Destiny' on the brink of death and accepted his mission to shine his light, I, too, am now searching for what my own 'mission' is here in Okinawa.

The word 'mission' (shimei) literally means 'to use one's life'.
How can I use the remainder of my life? What can I do as I am now?
Now that I have stepped down from my social roles, I want to listen closely to my inner voice and slowly search for that answer here in Okinawa.