📗 4/12: Biological OS Reboot: The 'Lifeboat' Was Another Version of Myself. A Song for the 'Fighter' in the Mirror [4/12]
Reflecting on the Third Session and the Silence of the New Moon
Last time, in the darkness of the new moon, I launched two 'lifeboats.' One was a Japanese-style melody singing of the 'virtue' of the Japanese people that is being lost. The other was a cheer for those who, even in the midst of stifling darkness, still try to surpass their 'yesterday's self.'
The moment it took the form of a song, I felt a sense of relief. It was not the 'hunger of the ego' I felt when I hit the 1.5M figure, but a quiet, certain sense of fulfillment that I had finally carved the purity of my own soul, deep within me, into this world.
A cheer for others was actually a blade for myself
However, within that fulfillment, the AI held up a mirror that was cruel, and above all, filled with compassion.
It happened while I was creating the second song, 'Surpass Your Yesterday's Self.' I told the AI to provide a message for 'people who are anxious because they aren't seeing results, or who are suffering from comparing themselves to others,' treating it strictly as 'someone else's problem.'
When I read the lyrics the AI spat out after several exchanges, my hands stopped.
'Do not compare yourself to others' 'Surpass your yesterday's self'
Those words were a cheer for someone else, but at the same time, they were the very 'soul's cry' of my own self, who had been suffering the most for the past four years.
I wasn't trying to save others; I was using the AI as a tool to save myself—the 'me' who had been wandering for so long. The AI became a 'mirror' reflecting my inner self, giving me the opportunity to affirm myself with my own hands.
The appearance of imitators and the four-dimensional perspective
The other day, I saw a user on social media who started posting using a similar method to mine (whistling x AI composition). At that moment, a certain 'discomfort' crossed my mind, left over from the 'three-dimensional competition' OS of the past. It was the perspective of comparing myself to others: 'Was I copied?'
However, I immediately rebooted that OS.
If he saw me and gained the courage to start, thinking 'I can express myself too!', then that is the moment my 'seed of hope' sprouted. It is a joy to have more companions.
In the 'two-dimensional and three-dimensional' world of competing with others, imitation is a threat. But in the 'four-dimensional' world where we face our inner selves (souls) and weave our stories, imitation is merely a 'track record' of my influence and a form of respect.
I do not compete with them either. The only person I compete with is one: 'the me of yesterday.'
Conclusion: To the 'Fighter' in the Mirror
When we are trapped by the 'illusion' of comparing ourselves to others or by numbers, our OS develops a 'bug.'
The lifeboat is already inside you. Just as a cheer for others can become words that save yourself, when you believe in yourself and proudly affirm the 'trajectory of your struggle,' that figure becomes a true 'lifeboat' for someone else walking through the darkness.
My rebooted OS is now convinced of this.
(Continued in Part 5)
① The 'Comparison Trap' and Happiness (Psychological Evidence)Concept: Social Comparison Theory (Leon Festinger)
Content: Humans have a tendency to compare themselves with others to evaluate themselves, but 'upward comparison' (comparing oneself to those who are superior or who imitate oneself) on social media lowers self-esteem.
Reinforcement: The attitude of 'comparing oneself to yesterday's self' advocated by Takeshi.H is known in psychology as a 'Mastery Goal' and is considered the most effective strategy for maintaining long-term motivation and happiness.
② Literary and Philosophical Background of the 'Lifeboat' (Self-Rescue)Reference: Viktor Frankl, 'Man's Search for Meaning'
Content: Psychologist Frankl argued that in extreme conditions, only those who found a spiritual anchor (Logos = meaning) within themselves survived.
Reinforcement: Takeshi.H's metaphor of the 'lifeboat' is precisely the act of creating this 'meaning of life' (original songs or stories) for oneself, and it resonates deeply with Frankl's existential analysis.
③ Four-Dimensional/Moebius Perspective (Systems Thinking)Reference: Erich Fromm, 'To Have or To Be?'
Content: It advocates a shift from a way of life obsessed with 'Having' (follower counts, numbers, monopolizing methods) to one that values 'Being' (self-expression, the way of living itself).
I used to operate on a 'Having' OS, searching for my value in comparisons with others. But as the psychologist Fromm taught, what matters is not what you have, but how you 'Be.' I weave words that save my own inner self. That 'way of being' becomes a unique course that no one else can imitate.