The reality of an office worker in her late 30s. The reality of an office worker who was saved by letting go of her skills when changing jobs.

You can no longer work with the same mindset you had in your 20s.

I was facing a sense of loneliness and a conflict with myself.

I can now feel that the choice I made at that time was the best one.

This is a story about facing my own mental habits.

1. The Problem: I was tired of constantly choosing what I was capable of doing.

In my 20s, I tried doing what I wanted to do and chose jobs where I could utilize my skills. I have no regrets about the experience I gained, but in the end, I chose stability by leveraging my strengths. Stability is something everyone seeks, and I thought it was normal. Having too many options actually increased my worries, and I ended up exhausted.

#ThinkingAboutCareer
#UtilizingSkills
#StabilityIsInstability

2. The Challenge: The habit of thinking that results are everything.

I was convinced that results equaled peace of mind. That habit affected my daily life and relationships. I wanted to find a punchline for everything immediately, and I tended to think in black and white. I couldn't accept the gray areas. Because I wanted to feel secure somewhere, I sought results too much and pushed myself into a corner.

#ResultOriented
#SelfBlame
#Stoic

3. Realization: Being result-oriented was a professional habit.

My main profession was accounting. A daily life constantly chased by numbers was the norm, and I was good at balancing them. It was a world with clear answers. Now, I have changed jobs to design administration, and I spend my days being chased by various projects. Since things don't go according to a manual, I need to handle things on a case-by-case basis, and it's a position where communication is important. This is, conversely, a world without clear answers.

Every job had its rewards, but after leaving accounting, I realized that I had been tired of human relationships.

#MyTalent
#Creative
#OccupationalHazard

4. Introspection: Even with skills, my heart couldn't keep up.

In accounting, there was a correct answer where not even a single yen could be off, so I unconsciously developed a habit of thinking I had to do things properly and didn't want to make mistakes. I felt relieved when I got results, but if things didn't match up, I would feel anxious, and I felt scared if I didn't produce results. Also, being in a position close to management was stressful.

#MyHabits
#SelfUnderstanding
#FacingMyself

5. Action: A workplace chosen with my heart, letting go of conditions.

Rather than being fixated on conditions, I thought it would be fine if I could just make a living, so I decided to work in a relaxed manner as a temporary employee. Until now, I had chosen jobs by prioritizing conditions such as salary and stability, but this time, I valued my own comfort and chose an environment where I could work without pushing myself.

#MinimalistLiving
#TurningPoint
#DontOverwork

6. How to organize: A world without answers suited me better

What I am good at and what feels comfortable did not align. Precisely because it is a world without answers, I am able to think flexibly and enjoy the process. Perhaps my sensibilities were stimulated by interacting with architects and creative people. It is a blessing to be able to leave work on time every day, and while working with all your might in your 30s is cool, I think it is more wonderful to be able to cherish yourself.

#ShiftInThinking
#WorldWithoutAnswers
#BestChoice