I thought that I couldn't protect this child on my own.
That day was the first time I thought,
that I couldn't protect this child on my own.
There were moments when no matter how hard I tried, nothing could be done.
I had the highest fever of my life.
Because I was breastfeeding, I couldn't take my usual medicine.
But the fever wouldn't go down at all.
My body felt terrible.
Even so, my child was crying because they were hungry.
What would happen to this child if things stayed like this?
That thought even crossed my mind.
No matter how hard I tried, nothing could be done.
I didn't know if this way was wrong or right.
With my own efforts, I couldn't protect this child.
I didn't know the right way to try.
For the first time, I realized my own limits.
The next day, when I went for breast care, the midwife said this to me:
"You were working so hard until your breasts got like this, weren't you?"
With those words,
the anxiety and tears I had been holding back all came pouring out at once.
I see, I had been doing it right after all.
I was acknowledged for having worked hard
at my first experience of raising a child.
In that moment,
I cried until I was sobbing.
From that day on,
I learned what it meant to "rely on others."
Being a mother doesn't mean struggling all by yourself.
There is no single right way to work hard as a mother.
I was finally able to think that
relying on someone else
is also necessary to protect this child.
That is why I am now
unofficially promoting the work of midwives.
The time midwives spend
involved in our lives is never long.
Even so, at the moment of the beginning of life,
they are a presence that is truly there for us.
So that moms don't have to be alone.
As a presence that stays close during the first moments when moms and dads become parents.
I wanted to properly preserve the words and thoughts of such midwives.
I wanted to make sure they were recorded.
I interview dads, moms, and midwives,
and record the stories of "what it means to be born."
Your story of "what it means to be born"
will surely be a source of strength for someone else.
I will continue to preserve those stories.
2026/07/09 I wrote another one!
[Director's Talk] The reason why I want more people to know about the work of midwives
2026/3/31 Serializing the stories of dads' pregnancy and childbirth starts now!
"What do dads feel during childbirth?"
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