As It Flows - p.11

Ever since 'she (the other half of my soul)' entered through my back, it has been a truly difficult time. First of all, the burden on my physical body was too great. It was more substantial than when I was in the womb. It is still the same now. When I was in the womb, she and I were separate beings. It is the same as a mother and a baby being different people. Now, however, I am taking on all the pain, suffering, and overwhelming power that her spirit body carries, and I am constantly on edge, wondering if some screw might come loose or some rubber might burn out at any moment. It is an experience accompanied by such a sensation.

In the very early stages, I first had terrible headaches. My body was reproducing the pain of the 'wounds' that were still attached to her spirit body. I couldn't keep my body upright, and when I went to bed early, the pain spread over a wide area, and I became convinced, 'Ah, that's right, my head was crushed from this side' (= massive bleeding). Since then, I have been catching glimpses of painful stories from past lives that I would rather not know about.

I had experienced this headache since I was a child. Although headaches are classified into many types in Western medicine, each with its own characteristics, my pain did not fit any of them, and I had taken a lot of strong headache medicine. In the end, the most effective thing in my later life was a homeopathic remedy that promotes blood flow. It had always been a mystery. The remedy worked even though it wasn't a situation where blood flow was obstructed and causing a headache. I had been suffering for many years from pain (in the physical body) that came from wounds (in the spirit body) received in a past life, but this kind of issue might be something that those who practice Noguchi Seitai can understand well.

And these headaches have almost disappeared since I started working on my inner child. I was taught that the inner child in a past life is karma, and that working on the inner child in this body in this life is to resolve both my past life and my ancestors' karma, and since this was an event that embodied exactly that, this also became a great learning experience.

Well, like that, I felt sharp pains in various parts of my body after that, but by learning the types of pain, I also realized that the pain from electromagnetic hypersensitivity over the past few years is very similar to that. It could be said that the spiritually weak parts were being highlighted. In any case, we think we know what the physical body is just by looking at the visible parts and things we can imagine, but that is a great misunderstanding. The foundation lies in the invisible parts, and the history of the soul is engraved on each and every one of those switches. And healing those wounds and evolving them is what can be called true healing.

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Here, I would like to introduce what she taught me about Reconnective Healing. I asked what the meaning was of this healing, which I encountered through a very mysterious flow. The answer came back: 'It is something that heals the wounds attached to the spirit body.' Reconnective frequencies are a great divine intelligence that realizes the original form of the soul and a stable state without wounds or biases. It seems to have the function of healing the wounds of souls like hers, whose bodies were torn apart so they could not be resurrected, or who were cursed, making recovery on their own impossible, and supplementing their connection with heaven. Hearing this, I thought that the dream I had on the day I received the healing was exactly what represented the restoration of my connection with heaven.

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With that said, for a little less than a month after that, I was shown in my dreams the events that took place in the underground world where she lived for 2000 years. Running around alone, having nowhere to escape, being cornered and going mad... I think I was seeing these painful dreams, like illusions or delusions, rather than things she actually experienced. I ended up seeing the continuation of those dreams with her, and this was a time that really wore down my spirit, and I could feel my heart fraying day by day. My body was so painful due to the physical changes that I couldn't stay awake, but if I slept, only nightmares continued, and even if I wanted to refresh myself, I couldn't move at all, and I was falling apart.

Just before the harvest moon, I was warned by a card to be careful because I would be quite affected by the full moon. The person on the card at this time was the Sun God, my soul partner. Perhaps because I was already exhausted by that time, I received great 'love' and 'encouragement' from the Sun God. He cared for me and showed me a strength I could rely on, and I couldn't help but say, 'Oh, what an ideal male image...!' as I put the card away.

Finally, I would like to note that I made a very interesting discovery as the number of people on the cards increased.

The way they present the cards is different for all three, and it is interesting to see their personalities.

Heavenly Father's perspective is indeed one level higher. He is very good at explaining the flow of the story. There is no waste, the order of each card is precise, and he presents them in a way that the meaning can be grasped perfectly. It is spectacular to line them all up and look at them. It feels like peeking into God's mind through a narrow gap. It is a superhuman technique that cannot be imitated.

She (the Moon Goddess), being a shrine maiden, is intuitive and an artist type. She is the most interesting. She presents answers quickly in the form of visions. They are very accurate, concise, and capture the truth. And her 'feminine' sensibility comes through so well that it feels like we are really chatting. When I can quickly understand what she wants to say (I can understand quite a bit), there is a reply like 'Yes! That's it! That's right!', and it becomes a very fun time.

And as for my partner (the Sun God), perhaps it is because he is not used to it yet, but he is too stuck in a mold, making his true intentions difficult to convey... But he seems to have more desire than anyone else to convey his feelings and support me, so when I say, 'I'm going to sleep now, so please give me one last card,' he might close with an 'I love you' card (by the way, he was my son when he was alive). 'My son thinks his mom is the best...', says the 3D mom who has aged 2000 years, feeling quite cold about it, haha.

And surprisingly, a part of this Sun God's consciousness is inside my beloved black cat. Wow, a son who loves his mother too much, that's scary! Is he monitoring me? I'm making a fuss and kissing the cat again today.

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Next time, I would be happy if I could write about Kundalini, Aichi mythology considerations, and the common points between her and me. And I would be extremely happy if you enjoyed it.