To those who have lived by pushing themselves too hard🕊️ | "Signs your mind and body❤️‍🩹 are at their limit" What I, who relied on no one, couldn't realize until my body stopped moving😿🛌 Listen to "Wo Ai Ni: Mother's Book"🎶

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I was hesitant about the timing
of posting this article.

I am currently looking back
on memories of the past,
and I felt that now is the only time
to do so without regrets,
so I decided to post this article.


Because I have pushed myself in the past and
have had people close to me take their own lives,
I hope this article reaches
those who are struggling right now.

"My mind was saying, 'I'm okay'"

I can still keep going.


Everyone else is doing this much.


I spent every day
telling myself things like that.


I was able to get my work done properly,
and I could talk to those around me normally.


I think I was able to put on a smile well enough.


That's why I never even thought
that I was approaching my limit.


But my body was honest.


From the moment I woke up in the morning,
my body felt so heavy I couldn't get up.


A fatigue with no apparent reason.
A feeling that even sleeping wouldn't help me recover.


Conversely, even though my body was moving,
my heart felt empty,
and I couldn't properly react
to things that should have made me happy.


Looking back now, all of it
was a sign from my mind and body
saying, "Rest."

"I wasn't aware that I was pushing myself"

To be honest,
I didn't think
I was "pushing myself."


There are many people who have it harder.


Complaining about this much is just being soft.


That is how I
put my own struggles on the back burner.


I was often relied upon,
and every time I was told, "You'll be fine," I felt
like I had to live up to that.


Even though I didn't actually have any room to spare,
I would smile and say, "I'm fine."


Even when I was struggling,
I would think, "I have to do this."


Before I knew it,
prioritizing those around me
over my own feelings
had become the norm.

"Signs my mind and body were giving off"

✔︎Checklist for those who have been pushing themselves


Please stop for a moment here.


Are there any of these that apply
to you recently??


Don't think too deeply,
"it feels somewhat close" is fine.


✔︎Signs appearing in the body

□ Feeling dizzy
□ Persistent ringing in the ears
□ Getting hives for no apparent reason
□ Breakouts/skin irritation that won't heal
□ Prone to cold sores
□ Recurring canker sores
□ Increased hair loss/concerned about hair thinning
□ Unconsciously clenching teeth/jaw feels tired


✔︎Signs appearing in daily life or the mind

□ Chronic headaches, stiff shoulders, or stiff neck
□ Stomach pain, indigestion, or loss of appetite
□ Recurring diarrhea or constipation
□ Feeling heart palpitations or shortness of breath
□ Cannot sleep, or sleep is shallow
□ Feeling anxious for no reason, or bursting into tears
□ Feeling tired all the time even when doing nothing


How many did you check?

"I didn't know who I could rely on"

Since I was young, I was the type
who was often relied on by parents and friends.
The one receiving consultations.


The one offering encouragement.


The one told, "You're so reliable."


(In reality, I'm not reliable at all.)
Therefore,


before I knew it,
I had convinced myself,
"I must not be the one who relies on others."
Even when it was painful,


I would swallow it, saying, "I'm fine with this much."
Even when I was suffering,


I would smile, saying, "I shouldn't worry others."
In truth,


I wanted someone to ask me,
"Are you okay?"
I wanted someone to tell me, "You've worked hard."

But I didn't know how to rely on others.


Because I had lived my whole life as the "supporter,"


I was afraid to show my weak side.
So I kept it all to myself,


and didn't realize it until I reached my limit.

"The day my body stopped before my mind did"

Even though many of those things applied to me,
I still thought, "I'm still okay."


One morning,
I tried to get up as usual, but
my body wouldn't move at all.


I didn't have a fever.


I didn't have any intense pain.


It was just that my body was clearly
saying, "I can't do any more than this."


At that moment, like a string snapping,
I couldn't stop crying.


"Ah, I've been suffering for so long."


Only then
did I finally realize my true feelings.


The "limit" my mind couldn't express,
my body was communicating for me.

"Sometimes it's too late once you've broken"

The mind can endure surprisingly well.
(In my case)


The body also endures up to a certain point.


However, once you exceed your limit,
one day, suddenly, you can't do anything.


This isn't a threat,
it is the reality I experienced myself.


That is why,
I want to tell those who are pushing themselves now.


Resting is not running away.


Stopping is not losing.


It is
a choice to keep yourself from breaking any further.

"For when you feel there is no one you can rely on"

"It's okay to rely on someone."


For some people, those words
actually sound painful.


You want to rely on someone.


Yet, you can't think of anyone to rely on.


You're afraid of being a burden.


You're afraid of showing your weak side.


That is because you have always lived
prioritizing "someone else".


Even if you can't say "help me" right away.


It's okay if your words don't come together.


Even so,
there are places you can connect with right now.

📲 Consultation services available right now (within Japan)

📞 Official websites for each consultation service

Japan Inochi no Denwa (Lifeline) Federation

*In addition to phone calls, online consultation (email consultation) services are also available here.


Yorisoi Hotline (Social Inclusion Support Center)

This is a place where you can talk about anything, anytime.

📞0120-279-338
(From Iwate, Miyagi, and Fukushima prefectures 0120-279-226)

💻 Official Website/Details

*Confidentiality is strictly maintained

*If you don't want to give your name,
using a pseudonym or nickname is fine.

Any kind of consultation is welcome.

Whether it's about family, work, inner turmoil, financial or life anxieties, domestic violence, sexual violence, or concerns regarding sexual minorities (LGBTQ+), professional counselors are there to help.

Consultation in foreign languages is also possible

Consultation in languages other than Japanese is also supported.

*This is a 24-hour toll-free service.


Mental Health Consultation Unified Dial (Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare information page)

*You will be connected to a public professional consultation agency near you.


What is the Emergency Relief Center (#7119)? (Fire and Disaster Management Agency)

*This is a consultation service for when you are unsure whether to go to the hospital or call an ambulance due to a sudden injury or illness.

💡 SNS If you prefer consultation via chat

On the Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare website,
in addition to phone,LINE andLivesort and other variousSNS consultation service lists are compiled.

▶ Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare: List of organizations providing SNS consultation, etc.

❤️‍🩹Finally

You have endured so much on your own until now.

It is okay that there was a time you couldn't rely on anyone.

You can just create a "time to rely on others" from now on.

You being healthy.

You living with a smile.

That is,
for your loved ones,
their greatest wish.

You have value even without pushing yourself.

Even if you rest, your place will not disappear.

These are words from me,
who once lived by pushing myself too hard,
to you who are still working hard today.

Thank you for reading
until the end.

I believe that the feelings in this article
will reach someone.

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