A single tarot card gave me the courage to escape from living in a state of separation under the same roof

Days spent living in tension

Days where living in separation under the same roof continued, and I felt like there was no way out, unable to convince my husband to move out or get a divorce.
I was blamed or yelled at every chance they got. Even when I tried to talk things through, they would yell at me and end the conversation.
It felt like my mother-in-law and husband were a golden duo, using exquisite timing and words to cut into my feelings and deny my very existence.

The root cause was the difference in our relationships with our respective parents and our ways of thinking after our child was born.
I would like to write about the circumstances leading up to the separation under the same roof another day.

Back then, while being chased by work and child-rearing, my body and mind had long since exceeded their limits.
But I didn't have the energy or confidence to fight, so I just got through each day.

Somewhere in my heart, I kept telling myself, 'Someday this will end!' or 'Maybe my husband will give in and ask for a divorce,' holding onto those wishes.

However, those wishes were not easily granted.
Because it was painful to be at home, I would leave the house early every morning after sending the kids to school, even though I still had time before my part-time job, and on the way back, I would spend time shopping at the supermarket, intentionally returning late.

I was afraid of my husband coming home drunk, so I made sure to finish my chores early at night and avoid seeing him, but I started waking up many times to the sound of my own heartbeat.

What pushed me forward at that time was just a single tarot card.

It was when I felt my mind and body were at their limit.
One day, I happened to see a single tarot card in an Instagram post.

'Turning point of fate, a chance has arrived'was written on it.

Attracted by the design, which reminded me of the abyss of the universe, and those words, I was looking up the meaning of the card on the internet the next day.

While doing so, for some reason, I felt like I was watching myself from afar, and
I felt that my current state of being cornered was abnormal.

'From the perspective of the universe, a human life is just a fleeting moment.
Why am I spending such short, precious time every day with a dark face, unable to smile, and making my children's faces cloud over too? Let's stop this.'

I felt like I was being admonished like that.
It felt like it pushed me, someone who was just waiting for the end to come someday,
'It's now!'

I see, it's now. If I keep going like this, it will be beyond repair.

This wheel of fate has come to pick me up,
let's get on the wheel and roll with it!
Once I thought that, strength welled up, and I was able to decide to take the plunge and consult a lawyer.
Honestly, I thought that consulting a lawyer was only for people involved in crimes or more serious incidents... so I wondered if it was an exaggeration for me to consult one.
But, thinking about it calmly, living in tension for so many years like this was, for me, a major incident.

There were many law firms, so I was very lost.
I researched various reviews and track records, chose the one that seemed like it would be the kindest,
and was able to make an appointment that same day.

I have summarized the events leading up to the separation.⬇️

Looking back with Zi Wei Dou Shu divination

Now that I have learned Zi Wei Dou Shu, I think that looking back,
the reason I was so desperate was partly because I had a Life Palace with the Tai Yin star (Moon) + Hua Ji star, which is a dark moon in the morning that doesn't shine... 🌜💧
In Zi Wei Dou Shu, the 'Tai Yin star' is delicate and sensitive like the moon, and it is a moon that shines only in the beautiful night, but my star was a moon with weak radiance, and with the addition of the Hua Ji star, which is the most ominous star in the Zi Wei Dou Shu world, its negative aspects were more likely to appear.
And it is a star that makes it easy to think about things in a bad direction no matter what.
Even small anxieties immediately cast large shadows on my heart.
I think I was, as the stars indicated, sunk to the bottom of despair at that time.
But, the palace of fortune for that year happened to contain the Mars and Qing Yang stars, which are aggressive and brave stars with Yang energy.
I feel like they made me stronger after I saw the 'Wheel of Fortune' tarot card ❤️‍🔥