A story from my high school days.
As I have written before, I attended an all-boys high school.
For those who have never been to an all-boys school, let me explain: high school boys are monkeys.
I was a monkey too.
Even in such a monkey paradise, frankly, there was no fun to be had involving women. You can imagine an environment like a prison.
However, we did have one single pleasure. That waseroge—bishoujo games.
At the time, it was called the golden age of so-called bishoujo games.
Naturally, they were for ages 18 and up, but that didn't matter. History has proven that there is no way to stop the libido of high school boys with such things.
That said, they were expensive. About 8,000 yen for a full package. It was too harsh for a high schooler's wallet. And you couldn't play them without a PC. Honestly, I had barely played any.
But I had more information than anyone else. I subscribed to magazines like Comptiq and Megami Magazine, and I crammed every bit of information about the latest releases into my head.
Also, even if I couldn't buy the games, I could buy the novelizations. They don't exist anymore, but Paradigm Novels used to publish them, and while they were technically in the 18+ section, I would sneakily buy them at Animate.
The clerks probably knew, but they didn't say anything. I would have done the same if I were them. It was a path they had walked themselves.
I could also buy the theme song CDs. I would listen to those CDs night after night, immersing myself in the world of bishoujo games.
There was no way I was going to study.
I especially liked Da Capo, CLANNAD, and AIR. For some reason, there was a karaoke place that cost 1 yen per hour with a one-drink minimum and no time limit, so I would lower my octave and belt out those songs with my bishoujo game-loving friends.
Even though we call them bishoujo games, the genres vary. Of course, there is some sexual content, but that is just an extra.
With no connection to women, we were falling in love with love itself through those games.
Playing bishoujo game theme songs on a CD player and devouring novels. Thinking back, it was a happy time.
I am a chuunibyou patient now just as I was back then, so I liked denpa songs, and I also love the theme songs of tear-jerker games.
I wanted to make a song like that someday, too. That's what I thought. But I have a fatal lack of musical sense. I have no talent for writing lyrics either. So I had given up on it for a long time.
However, a fire was lit.
I listened to this article by Kinokoro-san, the debut single of Chuuni, “Delusions of a Dark Night”.
It hit my chuunibyou heart perfectly.
Everything from those days came back vividly.
It whispered to me to create.
Before I knew it, I had downloaded SUNO, and the night had grown late.
Now, please listen.
My heartfelt delusional bishoujo game theme song, “Twilight Resonance”.
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Flickering afterglow, in the heat haze
Only the sound of the chime, a refrain
The promise we exchanged that day
Still aches deep within my eardrums
Your signal breaks the program
A requiem that looks like an error code
Like embers scattered and broken
Since that day, my electrocardiogram draws a prism
Even if I break the laws of the world
I cannot erase the twilight vow
Tearing through the noise of silence
I just call out to you, straight ahead
To the truth that belongs only to us
By the way, the reply I got when I sent a LINE message to my wife before going to bed last night was Are you bored?.
Also, while I was going through trial and error to make this, I accidentally spent 1,500 yen on SUNO.
It is definitively clear that if my wife finds out, I will be beaten up.
I guess I am still a monkey now just as I was back then, no doubt about it.
To be continued in the second part.
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