2025/03/19 Two Months of Daily Posting: Changes in the Scenery I See

2025/03/19

Looking out the window, it's gloomy. A cold rain continues to drizzle, and the chill slowly seeps into my body. I want to ventilate the room, but I give up, fearing the floor will get soaked.

“The thunder is intense...”

After sending the kids off in the rain and somehow making it to work, to my surprise, it started to snow.
It's mid-March, and tomorrow is the Vernal Equinox.

Snow falling at this time of year... while surprised, I felt the moment when the seasons slowly shift.

“The present won't last forever.”

That obvious thought suddenly crossed my mind.

Because someday, it will change.

“It’ll be my turn next.”

Lately, I’ve been thinking about that more often.
Nothing lasts forever.

If you keep putting off what you want to do, thinking “I’ll do it later,” you might find that when you finally decide you want to do it, you can no longer do it.

That would leave only regret.

The days spent with my children feel like they will continue as a matter of course, but in reality, they are changing little by little.

My eldest daughter has recently started sleeping in her own room. When I asked to read to her, she declined, saying, “I’ll end up wanting to sleep with you,” and I’m the one feeling lonely now.

“I want to cherish what I want to do with my children right now even more!”

Once I thought that, my heart felt a little lighter.

“Not someday, but now.”

I feel like just being conscious of that changes how I use my time.

Accumulating small realizations

“The kids in the cheer trial are three years old! They’re so small! Wait, hold on, from a 6th grader’s perspective, am I like that too!?”

I couldn't help but laugh at those words.
For my eldest daughter, it was a small realization that “I am growing too.” That’s how the way we see the world changes little by little.

My second daughter seems incredibly excited about the cheer camp this weekend.
I can tell by her bouncy voice that she’s looking forward to learning new techniques and the thrill of spending the night with her cheer friends.

The children are living their “now” to the fullest today as well.
Seeing them like that makes me want to cherish “now” as well.

Setting priorities and taking action

Lately, the number of daily tasks has increased, and I feel like I’m hesitating more, wondering, “Is it okay to put this off?”
But today, I thought:

“If I keep putting off what I want to do until I can no longer do it, I’d rather cherish what I need to do now.”

Of course, I can’t do everything right away.
But I want to properly discern “what I need to do now” and “what I can do because it’s now.”

By spending my time while being conscious of priorities, even a little, I feel that both my own time and my family’s time will become richer.

What I’ve come to see because I kept going

For two months, there wasn't a single day I didn't write.
I never thought, “Maybe I’ll skip today,” and I rarely struggled for topics.

Even so, there were days when my motivation wavered.

“I can’t seem to pull this together.”
“How should I put this feeling into words?”

I struggled with those thoughts more often, and my hand would almost stop writing. But strangely, the option of “not writing” never came up.

I felt that by putting things into words, my feelings were organized, and I could see my perspective on the events in front of me becoming clearer.

That’s why I think I was able to keep going.

◎ Keeping a record has become a “habit”
The time in the morning, drinking coffee, thinking, “What should I write?” I’ve naturally started taking notes and putting trivial daily realizations into words.

◎ I’ve gained the ability to find “themes” in ordinary days
The moments I think, “I could write this on note!” have increased.
I realized that even without special events, small daily discomforts or excitements can become subjects for writing.

◎ I’ve started including “questions” in my writing
If it were just a diary, I’d keep doing it forever, and just writing it in a notebook would be enough. Because it’s note, I’ve tried to be conscious of using words that allow readers to think about it as “their own.”

◎ A small connection with readers was born
When I get “likes,” comments, messages, or tips, I realize, “People are reading this.” This was truly something I was grateful for in continuing.

Even on days with little reaction, I felt that “writing” is also a dialogue with myself.

The importance of looking at “now”

Before I knew it, writing had become a time for me to “cherish the present.” In the days that pass by casually, there are things I notice by writing.

There are emotions that can only be organized by putting them into words.
“If you put off what you want to do, you will regret it when you can no longer do it.”

I felt that the words I wrote in my notebook today were also a message to myself from the past two months of continuing note.

By writing, I am living “now.”

And by continuing to record that “now,” perhaps I can leave something for my future self.

Are you putting off things you want to cherish?
Was there any “realization” you wanted to put into words?


⸻ I also write about things like this

About the difference between “devoting yourself” and “being considerate”
I was thinking about it in circles ↓

I hope today’s realization makes your feelings even a little more comfortable.

Without pushing yourself, little by little.
Let’s find small happiness again tomorrow.
Well then, see you again!