[Table of Contents] Diagnosed with cancer at 44. The complete record of my constitution-improvement experiment where I decided to 'live as myself'
Introduction
A diagnosis of cervical high-grade dysplasia/carcinoma in situ.
It was a message from my body to me,
who had been running non-stop while putting myself last.
After much deliberation, while undergoing follow-up observations,
I decided not to pursue conventional treatment,
but instead to try the Eastern medicine concept of natural healing power,
and I have documented that journey of fighting the illness here.
How did I face myself, what did I let go of, and what did I gain?
Also, while facing the illness,
I learned that past trauma, assumptions from my childhood home life, the habit of blaming myself, and the habit of suppressing my feelings
were all deeply involved.
Including the fact that I started facing myself (introspection),
I have compiled that trajectory on note.
If you want to know about the progress of my battle with the illness more quickly, start here
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The actual records of my battle with the illness and the fluctuations of my emotions
are written in the structure of
Chapter 1 to Chapter 4,
so please use the table of contents.
Although my writing is clumsy,
I have compiled my thoughts from that time in chronological order and organized them into a magazine.
To those who are worried that things are not progressing as they would like...
'A place for women to share new perspectives'
[innconect]
I have decided to launch.
I like to think about what it means to be myself,
and I enjoy touching upon the thoughts and feelings of others.
What is [innconect]?
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1. Chapter 1: Cervical Cancer Screening Positive (Period of Trial and Error) - 7 episodes in total
Me at this time:
A diagnosis of high-grade dysplasia.
I was scared, but it was the moment I first started facing my own body.
Looking back, I think I was thinking about the same things every day to the point of repetition.
A period when I believed that 'earning money' was my value and put myself last.
2. Chapter 2: High-grade dysplasia/carcinoma in situ (Period when I started facing my heart) - 6 episodes in total
Me at this time:
The dysplasia wouldn't go away.
Although I was definitely feeling changes in my body,
I realized the connection between mind and body,
stopped putting a lid on my emotions, and began the process of using myself as an experimental subject to find my 'true feelings'.
3. Chapter 3: High-grade dysplasia/carcinoma in situ (Period of letting go of various daily attachments and struggling with surgery) - 5 episodes in total
Me at this time:
I started facing my heart in earnest,
and to let go of the emotions I had been suppressing,
I began taking courses.
I gradually let go of vanity and assumptions,
and I am now in a 'present' where I can feel happiness in the morning light and a cup of tea.
And, 'from here on'.
'The me who reached the point where my body created the illness'
I faced this firmly,
and I am the me who wavers
between the 'correct answers' of society
and the 'voice of my heart' that I hear.
While embracing that wavering me,
'This is fine'
I began to be able to acknowledge it,
the story of me during the experiment
4. Chapter 4: High-grade dysplasia/carcinoma in situ (Struggles after conization, until healing) - 11 episodes in total, complete
The trigger was a certain session.
Having started learning to face my heart,
I reached a stage where I began to understand the connection between body and mind more deeply.
In the midst of that, I reached a version of myself I never imagined while brainstorming with AI about feelings I couldn't confide in anyone.
I was finally able to affirm the self I had been until now, and how my body (the remaining dysplasia) would change...
The dramatic changes that occurred from there.
5. [Editor's Note] Thoughts on recovering from cancer... & Reflection record, all 1 episode~
I have left a record here summarizing the progress from cancer discovery to recovery in one episode.
I will pick up other things that were good to do,
and
write about them little by little in the future.
The article written for those who want to know briefly is here.
6. [innconect] Living as my true self
[innconect]
Inner x Connect
I am putting into words the thoughts that never stop ringing inside me, feeling the trivial discomforts of daily life around the clock.
This is the footprint of how I have deeply faced my subconscious.
A record organized as words.
7. [innconect] Information on sessions to connect with your true self
[innconect]
inner x conect: I am active as a 'place for women to receive new perspectives'.
What do you grasp from my questions and thoughts, and how do you choose to live?
Updates are slow, but I will upload session records little by little.
Request a session here
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8. [Permanent Preservation Edition] Life Strategy! Soul Stage x Strategy
⭐︎David R. Hawkins⭐︎
'Map of Consciousness'
Use muscle testing to know your current location.
Please try it like a game!
8. This and that of daily life
When I stopped thinking,
what I felt
about daily life.
Things taken away here.
Things that were fun.
9. [Essay] Reborn again and again ~The complete trajectory from domination to remarriage~
Control, romance, pregnancy, abortion, marriage, divorce, remarriage.
I believe that many of the triggers that cause 'illness' are contained right here.
Are you sacrificing yourself?
Do you think that by conforming to others, you will find happiness?
Are you swallowing your words and properly expressing yourself without holding back?
Are you giving up on yourself or denying yourself, thinking, 'I'm not good enough' or 'Because I'm like this, it's inevitable that unfortunate events happen'?
Lined up here is the record of that pain and rebirth.
I have intentionally made this paid content.
Only those who feel that my words and heart resonate with theirs should proceed.
*All 6 works can be purchased for 100 yen via the magazine below
https://note.com/human_emu7306/m/mabbc7ece6776
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10. In conclusion
My experiment is still ongoing.
Sometimes I stop or get lost, but that's okay.
Life has its joys and its sorrows~♪
From now on, I want to live by finding the fun in everything that happens to me
and turning it all into a learning experience!!!
I hope these articles serve as a catalyst to lighten your heart just a little bit...
I am doing well!