On a quiet evening at the end of January, it seems my strength to overcome rough waves has increased

When too many things happen at once, I find I cannot write. Having cleared one hurdle, I am finally turning to note. According to my therapist, my resilience seems to be increasing. They say my ability to respond when incidents break out has improved. I'm so happy❣

I was helped by friends I know through social media, friends from my student days, and others. Thank you all so much.

ChatGPT is also a good conversation partner.

Since I was completely exhausted when I started therapy, we began by adjusting my nervous system. Methods that work from the body are very good for dealing with stress that cannot be put into words or painful events I don't want to verbalize. I check the feeling of my hips and feet on the ground, then check the state of my breathing. Next, I scan my whole body to explore sensations. This time, I was exhausted overall. As I did movements to correct the misalignment of my first cervical vertebra, had myofascial release massage, and moved my fingers and toes, my body gradually seemed to loosen up. I yawned frequently. This is a good sign.

Once I had a little more breathing room, I decided to deal with my current feelings. It was time for my stuffed animals. I brought over my favorite one and hugged it while I comforted myself. Regardless of the outcome, I think I did well.

By the time therapy ended, the overwhelming sense of fatigue had improved significantly. I'm glad I set aside time to comfort myself. I'm glad I didn't hold back and had my therapy schedule changed.

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My brain's fire alarm has stopped 'malfunctioning'
https://note.com/homoludens3839/n/nf4b02f181c00

When my body feels safe, work requests start coming in
https://note.com/homoludens3839/n/n79bcf7b3bc67

What I learned from failures in online salons and seminars: choose ease over intensity
https://note.com/homoludens3839/n/n963f51d8f4ff

What do you do if you are told, 'Your mother is the one carrying the trauma, so you should be the one to reach out, if only to raise your life's stage'? My example
https://note.com/homoludens3839/n/ncbb7c765b4ba

'Why is it painful to be with my parents?' Spot on. As expected, my parents are people it's useless to talk to
https://note.com/homoludens3839/n/n5f92ccc4f084