As long as you are looking for the “correct answer,” your life will not move forward

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Hello, this is haRu*☽.

March.
It is the season of graduation.

My second son will also graduate from junior high school tomorrow.

Over these three years, my second son has grown rapidly in both body and mind.
(His height has exceeded 180cm, he has truly grown so much.)

A handkerchief is a must for tomorrow's graduation ceremony.
Since I cry at every entrance ceremony, I will surely cry tomorrow too... haha

Well then.
For the past few days, I have been thinking, "What is it that I truly want to graduate from?"

While I can easily think of "things I want to incorporate," such as new things or new experiences, for some reason, the answer to the question of "what I want to graduate from" did not come to me easily...

Even so, as I kept asking myself, an answer finally surfaced: "Ah, this is it!!"

Please let me make my "graduation declaration" in today's post.

“I am graduating from a way of life that searches for the 'correct answer'”

When faced with a big decision, I realized something.
That I was unconsciously searching for "what the correct answer is"──.
　　

Actually, for the past few months, I have been struggling a lot to make a big decision.

Since it was a choice that would be a major change for my family, I thought over and over again, "What is the best thing to do?"
　　

At that moment, I suddenly realized.

That I was unconsciously
“which choice is the correct answer”
searching for.

I am sure that is the case for everyone.

When making a choice...
especially the bigger the decision is for your life, the more the consciousness of "I don't want to fail" tends to arise, doesn't it?

That is precisely why people

"I want to choose the correct answer"
"I want someone to tell me what the correct answer is"

I thought that is the kind of psychological state they fall into.

Looking back, I think this "search for the correct answer" has been there since I was a child.

I was a child who was very sensitive to what my parents were thinking and what they wanted from me.

The thoughts of my father and mother, which would cross boundaries and jump into my life, became like the "correct answer" for me...

I think I began to feel that there was always a "correct answer" inside my parents.

That is why I thought that adopting my parents' way of thinking was the "correct choice."

Without me knowing it, inside me

"I must not make a mistake"
"I must make the right choice"

a feeling like that might have taken root at the same time.

And so, I began to care more about things illuminated from the outside than the voice inside me.

When I recall the feeling of searching for the correct answer, there is a sense of impatience or anxiety inside me.

And then, I start gathering information from the outside rather than listening to my own inner voice.

Someone's opinion
social common sense
advice from experts...

The more I listen to those things, the less I understand what the correct answer is...

And then, I suddenly realize.

"Is this really the choice I want to make?"
"Am I living my own life?"

That a voice is echoing from within.

I was truly troubled before this major decision.

Precisely because it was a big choice,

“I don't want to fail”
“I don't want to make a mistake”

Those feelings came up a lot, I was very confused, and I struggled a great deal.

But, at one moment after agonizing over it, I felt something clearly within myself.

That is“There is no such thing as a correct answer anywhere.”That.

If I choose what I most want to choose, I will simply live so that the result becomes happiness.
That is all.

When I thought this,my resolve was set.

So—
I am graduating from the “way of life of searching for the correct answer.”

Instead of a correct answer, I will listen closely to the voice of “what do I want to do.”

The inner voice is always genuine and always honest.

That is why I will listen to it and make choices simply.

Even until now, I have been making small choices based on the axis of “what do I want to do”
rather than a “correct answer.”

I feel like I have written many times in my note articles that connecting with your true feelings is important. lol

However, this time...
I think I was really tested when it came to a big choice.

A series of big choices, like a final exam for the experiences I have accumulated until now...!

Honestly, I really struggled a lot ^^

But, once I made the resolve to make myself happy—
once that resolve stood up, I was strong. lol

In the end, I chose by trusting my own true feelings and my own senses.
Well done, me. tears

I will take full responsibility for everything that happens as a result of this choice.
Because I chose this by following my own voice🤍

Perhaps you, too, sometimes have outside voices
unconsciously rushing in.

Someone else's expectations or society's common sense.
Voices like, “This is the right thing to do” or “Everyone is doing it this way.”

If you have a delicate sensibility, you must surely be unconsciously receiving the voices and energy around you every day.

But, even so.

While noticing those voices, what if there is no correct answer anywhere?
No, what if you yourself can turn the result of your choice into the “correct answer”—

“What do you want to choose right now?”

Perhaps,“searching for a choice that will make you happy”is a pattern many people operate by.

But.
Through this experience, I felt that life is something you“make happy after you choose.”

Surely, there is no such thing as a “correct answer” in life.
Perhaps life is about living while creating your own “correct answer.”

Because I am someone who sensitively picks up on the voices of others, I felt that listening to my own voice is the most important thing in life.

If there is no correct answer—
I want tolive exactly as the voice welling up from my heart dictates.

That is what I think.

Thank you for reading this far through my graduation declaration.

This article was written in accordance with the theme “I am graduating from ○○” for the March project of Kaze no Boushi-san’s “Garden of Words.”

It was a very deep time of looking into my heart.
Kaze no Boushi-san, thank you as always for the wonderful opportunity 🎵

　　　haRu*☽

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