Why can we live despite being full of contradictions?

Introduction

I want to be someone who doesn't waver.

It would be easier if I could explain myself with words that have no contradictions.
The more I think that, the more my wavering and contradictions seem to stand out.

Here, I will write about a way of being that involves "constantly wavering and living while containing contradictions."

1. Wavering is not a weakness, but a reaction to touching the world

When I waver, I sometimes feel immature.

I can't make up my mind, I'm always lost.
However,wavering is not necessarily a flaw.

• You waver because you value something

• You waver because neither side can be easily cut off

• Because the world is not simple, the answer cannot be fixed to just one

Rather than being lost because of a lack of information, there are cases where the more information you have, the more you see the complexity.
Wavering could be said to be a form of sensitivity.

However, wavering is not always something to be affirmed.
Not moving because of wavering can sometimes become a hiding place for comfort.

Where does this difference arise?

2. Contradiction is not a lie, but a state where multiple truths exist side by side

Within the heart, there are thoughts that hold true simultaneously.

• I want to be free / but I want to be protected

• I don't need meaning / but I find myself searching for it

• Being alone is easy / but loneliness stings

If you dislike contradictions and try to erase one side,
the side you erased may reappear in a different form.
The more you try to unify yourself with strong words, the more a sense of discomfort may remain.

Contradictions might be less about immaturity and more like the depthcreated where the world and the self overlap.
However, whether that depth becomes a source of insight or a way to escape is another matter.

So, when does a contradiction become a 'state of thinking,'
and when does it become a 'state of avoidance'?

3. Put it into words, but don't be bound by them

Putting things into words brings relief.
But it also feels like it makes things rigid.
Many people should be familiar with this feeling.

• Words can be a light

• At the same time, they can be a cage

Explaining 'this is the kind of person I am'
unconsciously narrows down your future choices.

That is why I think it is fine to treat words as temporary placeholders.
Today's words are like today's weather.
If they change, it is not a betrayal.

However,are you hiding in ambiguity,
or are you crushing something with rigid words?
You need to check that from time to time.

4. Even in the swaying, there is a small line that is hard to let go of

Living while swaying is a little different from drifting.
Many peopleunconsciously hold onto a small line.

• I do not want to head in a direction where my body breaks down.

• I do not want to increase the number of irreversible ruptures.

Rather than a noble belief, it is a sense for avoiding collapse.
Even on days when I cannot see the meaning, it is a line I do not want to cross.

And this line easily wavers due to fatigue or isolation.
The wavering is not just an internal issue, but also a matter of one's condition.

• Is the current wavering a question, or is it fatigue?

• What I want to decide now is, forward movement or peace of mind?

If the anchor is too strong, it feels suffocating.
But if it is too weak, the wavering becomes exhausting.
Where does the space between those lie?

5. Living without erasing the wavering, and without breaking

It is natural to want to eliminate the wavering.
However, when eliminating the wavering becomes the goal itself,
your senses and options may be worn away along with it.

Wavering is troublesome, but it is also the friction of touching the world.
If you erase it completely, things become quiet, but also thin.

Therefore, living while wavering
might not be about affirming or overcoming the wavering,
but rather about sitting with the wavering and adjusting things so that life does not break.

Finally, I will leave you with some questions.

• When the wavering continues, what is it that is making you waver?

• Within those contradictions, what is the truth that exists simultaneously?

• If you could erase the wavering, what do you think you might lose?

There is no need to rush for an answer.

It is harder to know how to live with wavering than it is to stop it.
And within that difficulty, life continues to remain.

Thank you for reading until the end.
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I hope this post serves as a spark to light a small flame in your daily life.

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