Do not be afraid to struggle to be chosen.

[Day 496]

Let's speak honestly.

I want to be chosen.
At some point, that became a burden,
and I think I've been anxious for a long time.

I have no glorious awards or background.
Even for small things, whenever I'm compared,
I haven't been chosen.

I know myself that my desire to be recognized
is strong.
The so-called need for approval.

But that is also me.

For that matter, I'm still applying for writing jobs
and haven't been "chosen" yet.
I haven't landed any orders.
People tell me I should apply more,
but since I "choose" each one I apply for,
I feel down when there's no response at all.
I feel anxious, but I can only do what I can do. It's frustrating, though.

Today is the day the Creative Awards are announced.
Thank you all for your hard work.

People have likely been divided into those who were chosen and those who were not. Many must have shed tears of frustration.
I just look at the winning works and let out a sigh
of admiration.
They really are amazing. Of course they would become books.

But.
Not being chosen
means you challenged yourself.
It means you took a step forward.

A year ago, I was
working listlessly at my job,
just wishing for the day to end.
Note was still just a vast world,
and I had few acquaintances.
Now, when I open Note or X, I have
many friends who give me peace of mind.
Continuing has brought me friends.

I want to be chosen.
As a writer, as a creator,
I want to leave something behind in a tangible form.

Because I want to make "writing" my job,
may I continue to
keep challenging myself?
May I keep struggling?

Thank you for joining me again today. A tweet that is a bit of a serious declaration of determination.

Today's recommended Note

Thank you as always for adding me to your magazine😊✨
Hiiro-san's Note is overflowing with kindness.
I love how full of love for Note it is.
You've made me want to try a paid Note again. I look forward to working with you in the future🙇