The hyper-focused person who can't stop once they get into the groove.

[Day 372]

"Mom, aren't you going to eat!?"

Ah, it's happening again.

Whether it's reading, watching a movie, or writing,
once I get absorbed, I immediately forget to eat and sleep.
This is said to be one of the traits of ADHD.

In the past, my mother would often get angry at me, saying, "You're reading books until midnight again!"
(I haven't heard of many students getting scolded for reading books.)
When I get absorbed, it's not painful to read for an entire night.

I really did read Keigo Higashino's "Journey Under the Midnight Sun" all night long.

Being able to get absorbed is a good thing, but
I focus too much and end up crashing from a lack of energy later.
What's worse is that I don't even realize it
until I've reached my limit.
I'm out of battery.

If someone doesn't tell me, "You should take a break now,"
I'll just keep doing it forever
as long as it's fun.

Lately, I've been trying to manage things on my own
by using a timer or, at least for bedtime,
thinking about the next day's work.
(Having a disrupted sleep schedule is also
one of the traits of ADHD.)
I'm trying to make it work somehow.(I want to praise myself for having grown up.)

I found out I had a developmental disorder after I became an adult,
and because I didn't know what to do,
I was so scared that I studied a lot.

In my late 30s, I worried to death
about how to deal with myself.

I will continue to live with it.
I will continue to learn.

By the way, the one who was angry at the beginning
was my eldest daughter. She was in a bad mood because I didn't come
to eat the side dishes she worked so hard to make right away.
With my family looking out for me,
I am somehow managing to live.

May tomorrow be a good day as well.

[Today's recommended note]
I'm a shoe refugee who has been strangely interested in New Balance lately.
When I look closely, I see the letter N all over town.
As expected, it's supported by everyone...!
It's hot. I want an N.
I cast my vote for Hayamichi-san, who explains it so clearly.