【Adjustment Disorder】 The story of my mental recovery after resigning

When I resigned, I honestly felt relieved.

The sense of relief that I had finally left a place that was painful for me was much greater.

It wasn't that I didn't have any anxiety, but the feeling that 'I don't have to push myself anymore' was much stronger.

For a while, the feeling of just not wanting to try hard at anything continued.

During the time after I resigned, I watched a lot of YouTube.

There was a period where my feelings gradually calmed down while I mindlessly watched videos about mental health and ways of thinking that make the heart feel at ease.

I was also reading books. Books on introversion, HSP, self-improvement, and mental health.

While reading, there were many parts where I thought, 'This is me,' and I gradually came to understand myself.

I feel that rather than trying to do something in a rush, the time I spent just facing my own feelings led to my recovery.

It was also around this time that I learned about the concepts of introversion and HSP.

Why was I struggling in that environment? Why was I so exhausted by interpersonal tasks?

When it was explained using the term 'traits,' I had a sense of clarity, as if everything finally made sense.

Once I was able to accept that these were just my traits rather than blaming myself, my feelings became a little easier.

Being able to think, 'It wasn't that I was no good, I was just in an environment that didn't suit me,' was a major turning point.

As I began to recover, I started to think about finding a way of working that suited me better.

Work that doesn't force me, doesn't drain me, and allows me to go at my own pace.

I started as a freelance writer, took on a part-time job at an editing company, and eventually arrived at my current setup.

Although I felt anxious until my work stabilized, I felt a huge sense of relief once I was able to work in a way that felt true to myself.

If I could tell my past self one thing, I would say, "There's no need to rush."

Recovery takes time, and you don't have to think about what's next right away.

If you are honest with your feelings and take things slowly, you will be able to move forward little by little.

The experience of having adjustment disorder was painful, but it was a valuable time for me to get to know myself.

I believe that because of that experience, I am who I am today.

If you are currently feeling troubled by how you work or finding it hard to be a company employee,
I also have a note where I've compiled my own experiences.
👇 How to earn 50,000 yen a month creating YouTube scripts as a side job you can do from home

👇 How to find a way of working that doesn't force you, for introverts and HSPs

👇 Things I wish I had known before quitting, from someone who quit without savings or a next job

I would be happy if those who need it would take their time to read it 🌿