The Meaning of Receiving Money

Hello, this is Yukki😊

In this note, I share insights from everyday events to help you realize how your own thoughts create your reality🙆‍♀

I started my remote Reiki work on January 4th, and...

I was so happy that someone signed up for it right away yesterday😊✨ Thank you so much☺️✨

Having someone find value in what I offer and pay me for it... I had so many precious experiences☺️✨

At the same time, the anxiety and lack of confidence within me also surfaced... (lol)

I started from a state of almost zero self-esteem and no confidence, and I've reached where I am now by learning to cherish and love myself, and by fully affirming myself. I realized that if you don't believe you have value, it's incredibly difficult to accept money honestly😅

Even when I was doing Reiki for free, everyone felt some kind of effect, and the experiments showed that it works!

Even so, the anxiety of 'what if I fail even though I'm being paid...' or 'what if it doesn't reach them...' kept bubbling up😂💦

I was able to provide feedback on what I felt. I was curious about what I sensed in my own body while I was actually channeling the Reiki (lol)

Honestly, it felt incredibly good to me (lol). It's said that when Reiki is sent properly, both the receiver and the sender are healed. Based on my physical sensation, I also felt, 'Oh, isn't this a huge success?'☺️

Because of that, I was very curious about what the receiver felt, too😅 But I couldn't ask.

All I had to do was ask, 'How was it?', but the anxiety that came up first—'What if it didn't reach them?'—was so strong that I was too scared to ask (bitter laugh).

I thought that if I asked while feeling this anxiety, it might actually become reality... so I put the brakes on myself😅

Ah, I still don't have confidence in myself...
I realized that, and felt a little disappointed in myself...😔

But, almost at the same time, I also realized that there is a part of me that wants to do this work with such sincerity👀💡

Since they trusted me enough to pay me, I want to provide even more value than that.
I want them to be happy.

This feeling is stronger in me than in most people. That's why I get anxious and lack confidence.

Since it's my first time, that's only natural.

I have always hated myself for being anxious and lacking confidence.
I had convinced myself that being anxious or lacking confidence was a bad thing.

But that wasn't the case. It was actually the flip side of a strong sense of responsibility and sincerity...
Isn't that actually a wonderful thing? 🤔

In this way, I found another judgment I had been using to unconsciously torment myself.

It was okay to just be myself... 😢

The moment I realized that judgment, I felt a sense of relief and was almost moved to tears.

This is an experience I was only able to have because I gathered the courage to break out of my shell, started paid remote Reiki work, and had clients come to me.

I will praise myself for gathering the courage to take that first step. It's okay. Since I felt this so deeply in my own body, it definitely reached them. It's okay, it's okay...

I was just busy comforting my own anxiety 😂💦 (Sorry for being so uncool lol. Oh, wait, that's also a limiting belief 🙄)

After exchanging feedback,
"I did it! ✨ But I should have asked about how they felt... maybe they didn't feel any effects 😂"
I was thinking that, when something very grateful happened 😳

"This is a thank you for the feedback ✨"
They gave me an extra tip 😳✨

Honestly, it was such a shock, like a meteorite suddenly falling from completely outside the range of what I could predict, that I was surprised and my mind went blank (　 Д )　ﾟ　ﾟ Whaaat

They must have felt that my Reiki and feedback were worth more than the price! Thank you so much 😭✨

Along with that honest feeling of gratitude,

Could this be a severance payment?! 😰💦💦

That thought also popped up—Are you an idiot? 🙄 How twisted can you be lol

When I think about it, that is an extremely rude thought to both them and myself 😂💦 lol

But when you are in an anxious state of mind lacking confidence, even things that you would immediately realize couldn't possibly be true if you thought about them clearly, you end up thinking, "It must be that way 😢" 😅 lol

I was made aware of that too (lol)

How you receive is up to you.
The results in the real world also change depending on you.
That is something I have experienced many times before, and I understand it well.

I have a feeling that even more wonderful experiences are waiting for me from here on out...! 😆✨

With that premonition in mind, I would like to end this story by expressing my gratitude for the various realizations and good experiences I have had. 😊

I hope to continue being of help to everyone who needs Reiki. 😊✨
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Thank you for reading until the end. 😊

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Well then, I'll end it here for now |*ˊᵕˋ*)੭⁾⁾ See you later ꔛ‬♡