No.103 Are you satisfied with the articles you write? (Self-disclosure)

The "Draft" That Vanished

Last night, I posted a tweet about the following.

I had spent two days writing a short story of just under 3,000 characters, using spare time while commuting and time after my family had gone to sleep. However, after setting it for scheduled publication, I felt a sense of unease, or perhaps a gut feeling,

"I wonder if it's really okay to post this..."

After wavering, I intended to select "Return to draft" to put it back, but...

"Wait, what? ...It's gone!?"

No matter how many times I looked, it had vanished without a trace. However, as I wrote in my tweet when it disappeared, I was able to accept it, feeling that it was probably for the best that I didn't put it out there.

The reason is that while the content of the story itself was very positive,it touched upon the deepest parts of my inner self.

On note, I have written articles that touch on my inner self in the past, but that is only a small fraction.
You could even say I've barely written about it at all.

I have no intention of writing articles that delve that deeply into my inner self for the time being.

It takes real courage, and I don't even know what would happen if I were to come out with it.
Besides, I don't see any point in writing about it on note at this moment.

The "Resolve" to Write Articles with Heart

My thoughts and feelings, my daily life, and my hobbies.

There are plenty of things around me that I can turn into articles, and I believe that regardless of the content, people should just enjoy posting whatever they like. I, too, want to write about things that come to mind and my daily life.

However, there is one thing I should be cautious about writing, which is the "inner self" I mentioned earlier,"inner self".

I think it is definitely a good thing to write about painful experiences from the past or present.
If there is something you want to vent, you have to vent it somewhere. Keeping it bottled up only makes things harder for yourself.

"I just have to let it out, I can't suppress this urge anymore"

I think that feeling is important, and you should vent to your heart's content.

But I believe that if you are going to vent, you need a certain level of resolve.

I am sure that the creators who have vented in the past have truly summoned the courage to write.

It is very painful to write while recalling unpleasant things.
But those creators still managed to write down those painful feelings.

Because they wrote with such immense resolve, those articles are magnificent and full of heart.

I have read articles myself and, embarrassingly, have been moved to tears many times.
I truly think creators who can write such articles are amazing, and I want to keep supporting them forever.

If your resolve is half-hearted, you should stop.

On the other hand, as something I do not do myself,

“If my resolve is half-hearted, I won't write it.”

I don't have that kind of resolve right now, so I have no plans to write about it.

I had written some of it in a novel that has since disappeared, but since it would end up being a half-hearted disclosure, I ultimately canceled the scheduled post.

When writing about your inner self in an article, you should think carefully about whether you are truly writing it voluntarily.

For example, if it's an article you don't want anyone to read, I think you should just scribble it in a paper notebook you have on hand or just type it out in Word.

If you are going to write about your inner self on note, you must never forget that there are readers on the other side.

Creators are all such kind people that I end up feeling like they will accept anything, but everyone has their own way of thinking; while some will empathize, there is also a certain number of people who will find it unpleasant.

I don't like articles about one's inner self written with half-hearted resolve, and I close them without even reading the whole thing.

That is because,I think that person lacks respect for the creators who are truly pouring their courage into writing about their inner selves.

“Hey, it's fine to just mess around, you don't have to be so serious, you should just enjoy yourself more.”

People might say that, but for articles other than those about one's inner self, that's fine, and I actually laugh to myself while reading articles written half in jest, so I am enjoying them enough.

However,only when it comes to stories about one's inner self do I not arrive at that way of thinking.



I feel that no one will take such flippant articles about one's inner self seriously, and I sometimes even think they lack class.

…That said, it is an individual's freedom to write whatever article they want, so this is just my own opinion and I have no intention of forcing it on anyone.


It's just that I don't have to read them, and that's where the matter ends.

I felt unsettled like that all day yesterday, so I also posted the following tweet.

It was a tweet that I myself thought was unlike me…

Rewriting the lost novel

Because I was under a time constraint, I repeatedly proofread it—something I usually find too tedious to do for my regular articles—and finished it in a way that I am sure my feelings will reach the readers if they read it. So, even though it was all deleted, I remember the content clearly, and it is possible to restore it from scratch.

However, I am hesitant about whether to rewrite it, and I might post it with significant revisions.
If that happens, the content of this novel itself will likely have to be completely renewed.

If I can sort out my feelings in the future, I might think about writing it again.

As for novels, I think I will focus my efforts on the weekly short-short note that I am currently into.

I wrote articles that were not like me yesterday and today, and I am reflecting on that a little.

I think I will cool my head a little...