Setbacks might be a sign of a spark

If I say I'm aiming to be an artist at 37, many people might think it's reckless.

In fact, I myself have tasted failure many times.

Even when I do design work, I feel a gap between it and the expression I want to achieve.
Even when I release my work, I don't get the response I expected.
There is also the anxiety about life and money.

Even so, why do I continue?

It is because the "spark" inside me does not disappear.

In the world, setbacks are often treated as something bad.

But I think it's a little different.

A setback is proof that you are moving toward what you "truly want to do."

If you weren't challenging yourself, you wouldn't fail.
It is precisely because you are seriously trying to grasp something that you run into the reality of things not going well.

There is a story that even Takashi Murakami was living off discarded convenience store bento boxes when he was 36 or 37.

If you only look at his current form, he is a successful person, but behind that, there is a time that no one sees.

That is why I have a little expectation precisely when I face a setback.

"Ah, perhaps something is starting again."

That is what I think.

For every failure, the outline of myself becomes clearer.

Moving away from the answers of those around me, my own unique sense is polished.

I am not living to achieve goals.

I am living to make the spark inside me a reality.

That is why I want to take all my setbacks and failures with me if I can.

Because they are not enemies, but materials for future works.