Never Give Up, For My Future Self

Ever since I was young, I have struggled to express my emotions.

Whether I am happy,
frustrated,
or sad.

Even though my heart is in turmoil,
I cannot put it into words well.

I also have a stutter.

Even when I have something I want to say,
my words get stuck halfway.

Even though it is complete in my head,
it does not come out of my mouth.

There were times when I hated myself for that.

If only I could speak better.
If only I could live more skillfully.

I thought that many times.

But looking back now,
perhaps it was that clumsiness that led me to start drawing.

Things I cannot express with words,
I express with color.

I express with form.

I express with a spark.

It is okay if I cannot be like someone else.

It is okay if I cannot explain things well.

The way to express emotions,
is not just through words.

That is why I will not give up.

Even if I am not good at speaking,
even if I take a longer path than others,
I have my own way of expressing myself.

Today again,
I will continue to give shape to the spark within me, little by little.

Not giving up,
does not mean forcing myself to keep trying.

No matter how many times you fall,
I believe it is about trusting your own intuition.

Because my experience will be useful to someone.