I love expressions that convey emotions in their entirety

My family and I were watching a celebrity impersonation battle on TV.

It was a program where multiple people sang songs by the same artist, and the goal was to decide who sounded most like the original.

My son and I were watching it, excitedly saying things like, 'This person is better,' or 'No, this one sounds more like them!'

However, as I watched, I started to feel like something was missing.

The singing was good, and I thought it was amazing how they mimicked the original artist's techniques and quirks.

But it still felt lacking.

I wanted it to hit me hard, but it just washed over me.

When I wondered why I felt this way, I realized that I probably want to hear songs where the singer doesn't just trace the notes, but makes the song their own and pours their emotions into it.

Because I can't feel any emotion, there's nothing to grab my heart while listening.

It sounds similar, and I think the technique is wonderful, but it feels like they are just tracing the form, which leaves me unsatisfied.

I want the movement, the fluctuations, and the power that emotion creates.

Thinking about it that way, I realized I love things where I can see the movement of the heart, and where I am moved by projecting myself onto those movements.

Even with BL manga, it feels a bit lacking if it's just about an interesting story, beautiful art, or liking the characters.

I am drawn to works that leave something in my heart after I finish reading, even if I couldn't fully understand it at the time.

Such works always have something that I notice bit by bit as I reread them.

When I find meaning in an expression—thinking, 'Ah, maybe they were feeling this way at that moment'—the character's emotions, personality, and the flow of time become real, overlap with my own, and shake me deeply.

The works I reread so many times that I know I'm obsessed with them are the ones where emotion is truly infused into the expression.

Come to think of it, it was the same when I watched the movie 'National Treasure' that was a hot topic last year.

Several friends recommended it, saying I absolutely had to see it, so I went.

But my impression after watching it was, 'Hmm...'

Why did they move on to the next scene so easily, despite such a major conflict?
I wanted to know more deeply about the characters' struggles and emotional explosions in that scene.

That's what I ended up thinking.

I understand the intent behind the work.

But more than that intent, I think I wanted to savor the shifts in the characters' hearts more intensely.

I suppose I am unconsciously seeking expressions infused with emotion.

Whether I'm reading manga, listening to music, or watching a movie.

Despite that, I am not particularly good at expressing my own emotions.

For example, the text I am writing right now is not a piece that moves people with emotion, but one that convinces them with content.

Perhaps I was originally better at expressions that convince.

But expressions that only convince were not enough.

When my emotions reach someone else's heart, something moves within them.

And then, that person also wants to convey something.

In that moment, my chest warms with joy.

Having thought about many things, suffered, and moved past them, I now know how to feel my emotions with my body, not just my head.

And I have learned the joy of writing text that carries my own emotions.

Expressing emotions.

Conveying them by infusing them with emotion.

I have been thinking for a long time about how to teach that to others as a skill.

And that is also my job.

What moved me?

Why did I want to convey it?

The skill of weaving words that convey everything, including the motivation and the intensity of the emotion.

I believe that is what I want to convey.