[Raised by Toxic Parents x HSP] Connection might be more than just following 🌱 The relationships I want to cherish

Good evening, this is Hikari🌙

Today, I would like to take the plunge and write down what came to mind when I suddenly paused while continuing to write on note.

When I first started note, I really didn't understand anything, and I thought that if someone followed me, I should follow them back.
Without even knowing if that was the right thing to do, I just followed them back out of a sense of obligation.
But looking back now, I feel like there were relationships with people I followed back in the early days where we barely interacted,
didn't even read each other's articles, and just had the mutual follow status remaining.


On the other hand, there are mysterious connections.
People who come to visit almost every time even though we don't follow each other.


People whose articles I naturally end up going to read.
There were also people who exchanged words with me in the comments and made me feel warm inside.
Even so, we are not connected in the form of a follow.
Perhaps we both felt that we didn't need to force a connection,
or maybe we just couldn't take that one step forward.
But that sense of distance was also comfortable.

However, because we don't follow each other, I don't know when an article is posted.
Even so, I find myself suddenly curious and peeking in.


When I have some free time, or when I happen to see their name, I remember them and go to read.
I have come to think that such a relationship might actually be one form of a deep connection.

Also, the form of following had its own kind of pain for me.
When you follow someone, their articles are displayed in a list when they are posted.


My overly serious nature makes me see that and think,



I have to read this properly.
The feeling ofI have to read everything


turned into a sense of duty, and there was a time when it became a burden before I realized it.That's why now, I have paused on following everyone back,and even if I have the desire to read, I make days where I intentionally distance myself from note.
Since I started thinking that way, I began to wonder what a follow really is.
There are relationships where we are mutual followers but have almost no interaction,


and there are people who feel closer than that even without a follow.
It's a warm connection that exists there, even if it's not visible in numbers.

Even if we don't follow each other, I know their name, their icon, and even the atmosphere of their writing well.
It has no form, but interaction truly exists there.
Such connections also exist on note.


Now, I hope to continue with note while cherishing my relationships with people without being fixated on the form.🌱

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