Early Pregnancy Symptoms of My Second Child Part 2

Early pregnancy symptoms of my second child, continued
Following yesterday's post is the continuation.

July 6, 2007
Continuing from yesterday, I have brown discharge.
In the evening, I have pink bleeding and something like a membrane comes out.
It looks like I'm going to start my period just like this.
I don't have any particular symptoms that seem like morning sickness.
In the end, I didn't have any abdominal pain or anything that day, and the pink bleeding stopped.

If I have a miscarriage,
I'll just play to my heart's content with my eldest son this summer!
Thinking about where to go and what to do,
I went to sleep while planning our summer vacation.

July 7, 2007, Tanabata (Star Festival).
When I woke up in the morning and went to the bathroom, a thick lump came out.
There is no bleeding.
In the afternoon, this timea whitish, slimything like a membrane came out.
But

I don't have any abdominal pain or anything..It's strange.
I was 90% prepared.

That I would have a miscarriage, that is.I was worried because I had just gone two days ago, but

I decided to go to the clinic.
I went to the appointment with my 4-year-old eldest son.
Maybe because my eldest son was with me, I wasn't that nervous.
My name was called and I went into the examination room.
What was reflected on the ultrasound was something that looked exactly like a baby inside the sac!

And I was even able to confirm a heartbeat.
It was completely different from the shocking examination two days ago.

I was truly surprised, thinking, can it grow this much in two days?
Based on the size that day,
6 weeks and 6 days..The doctor said, '

Since we have confirmed the heartbeat, you can come back in two weeks or four weeks.
.'At this time, I was 90% prepared for a miscarriage, so the surprise was greater.When I asked about the bleeding, the lump, and the membrane, he said,

it was probably


remnants from when the polyp was removed two days ago..Hmm, that's confusing!

After returning home, feelings of joy gradually came to me.
I reported it to my husband when he got home. He was very happy.
If anything, he wanted a second child more than I did.
For me, pregnancy, childbirth, and child-rearing are

a discipline

a discipline that trains the mind and body and makes me re-evaluate myself
of sorts.Until I got pregnant, I lived selfishly andlived freely...Around this time, full-scale morning sickness also began.
After this, the baby grew steadily.
My flat stomach

became plump.
At 8 months, I was told there was a risk of

premature birth

and I was forced to live on strict bed rest at home.I took medication to stop contractions,and had my parents-in-law come stay with usto ask them to take care of the housework and my eldest son.
Thanks to my parents-in-law's care, the contractions settled down,
and the baby managed to stay in my womb until the final month.
And in mid-February, I safely gave birth to a 2,962g boy.

At 30 years old



first pregnancy, complete miscarriage at 8 weeks.At 31 years old
second pregnancy, complete miscarriage at 6 weeks.At 32 years old
third pregnancy, gave birth to a healthy boy at 32 years old.At 36 years old
fourth pregnancy, gave birth to a healthy boy at 37 years old. ♾️♾️ ♾️♾️ ♾️♾️ ♾️♾️ When you get married, you think childbirth and child-rearing area matter of course, butthere are cases where you walk a different path.
There are also many couples living a life for two.
I have friends like that too.
Married for 25 years.
It was found that the cause was with the man and they could not have children.
They have worked hard together,
always worrying, feeling down, and crying,

but they are still a couple with wonderful smiles.
They are important friends to me.

Every day, you never know what will happen.

There are times when things don't go as planned.

There are times when events that make you want to cry pile up.Even on such days,even on such worst days,

I want to be grateful for all the people and things that are here now.

(

it's actually difficult
).

Family, colleagues, friends,
neighbors, everyone around me,
I am living supported by all of you.

To drink coffee every morning,
I somehow reach for
my favorite coffee cup,
theburnt kettle
for boiling water,the worn-out towel
I use every day.

Even though I love them so much and am attached to them,
someday, with my own hands,I will no longer be able to hold them.

The strength to hold
the hand of a loved one

will also fade away,
and the day I depart from this world all alone
will surely come for me too.

*May 1, 2024

Early this morning, I dreamed of my mother who passed away in January.
Her birthday is May 15th.
She took her last breath on January 5th of this year.
Perhaps 5 and 1 are key numbers for my mother.
When I woke up, I looked at the calendar and thought,
Today is May 1st,I thought.

In the dream, my mother asked about my Golden Week plans.
I answered that I was going to my husband's parents' house.

I am sure that even in the afterlife,
you are playing the classical guitar you loved
together with your friends.

🍀May starts today.
I found a wonderful new collaborative magazine.
I will be participating.
Ryoyan-san! Thank you very much.
I look forward to working with you all.🍀