I am living thanks to the little kindnesses from the people close to me.
First, my daughter's father. A person who shares the same temperament as me. I have been saved so many times by your great kindness. I'm sorry for always making you worry.
I truly believe that it is thanks to you that I have been able to survive these turbulent three years since our daughter was born. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
And my mother. Whenever I call, your voice is always gentle. I have found so much comfort in that voice. Thank you.
The lady who lives next door in my apartment... I feel at ease whenever I hear her voice. Even though she doesn't have the best autonomic nervous system herself, she always speaks to me and rubs my back.
Thank you for knowing about my daughter's situation with the child welfare facility and for worrying about her.
T-san, whom I went to for advice when I was young. Back then, I was afraid of meeting people, so you always came to my house. You were always, always kind to me even when I was in a rough state. It is truly amazing that we are still connected privately like this 20 years later. I am so grateful.
My daughter. My daughter is my most beloved person right now. Maybe it's because I had her at an older age. She loves the color pink, and she used to hold onto a torn pink water balloon so carefully. To an adult, it might just be trash. But to her, it was a beloved pink treasure. Somehow... that side of my daughter is just unbearably endearing.
Lastly, my cat, cat?? Thank you for running at full speed every single day (even if you drive me crazy).
I have a feeling of living on the edge, thinking that today and tomorrow will surely be different.
But, I feel that I am living by receiving kindness from the people close to me, and by letting myself lick those little candies of kindness.
To everyone close to me, thank you for not abandoning me when I am occasionally in a rough state, and for wrapping me in your kindness.
I am so glad that I was able to write an article like this for my current self.😢
People on note are like heat haze that appears and disappears. There is a lot of falsehood, too.
I need to cherish the people who are close to me right now the most. Thank you so much for everything.
Also, for those on note who have photos of beautiful scenery, I would like you to show them to me. I am really craving them. Sorry. Maybe looking at the community photos is good too...
Note: This article is a revised version of a past post. From now on, since it's too hot and I can't think straight, I will probably include this style for a while.