I want to praise myself today

Today, I want to praise myself a little.
I kept my child company, played with them, ran around here and there, and before I knew it, my body was completely exhausted.
Responding to the constant cries of "I'm hungry!", I kept opening and closing the fridge. Wait? Didn't you just eat? You're eating again? 🫢
Responding to the pleas of "I want this!", I peeked into my wallet and let out another sigh.
That's how the day just flew by.

Actually, today was the day of the fireworks festival I was looking forward to 🎆
But even when evening came, I couldn't move my body.
I thought, "I want to lie down for a bit..." and when I flopped down, I couldn't get back up for a while.
That's how worn out I was.

However, after resting a little, I thought, "I'll go see the fireworks, even if it's just for a little bit."
It's okay if I don't see them all. It's okay if I don't stay in the crowd for a long time.
I thought that if I could just say "They're beautiful" with my child, even for the brief moment the fireworks bloomed in the sky, that would be enough.
I really want to praise myself for choosing to take that small step.

And then, there was one more happy thing today.
I bought some slightly better meat than usual and used it for dinner.
Usually, I think "save money, save money" and don't buy things like that.
But today, I thought, "This is a treat for both me and my child," and I took the plunge and put it in my basket.

And then, dinner time.
When I laid it out on the table and said, "Today is a little special," my child's eyes lit up and they said, "Mom, it's delicious!"
They ate it all up and gave me a smile.
It felt like my cooking skills had suddenly improved, and I felt a sense of pride.
Every time they said "It's delicious," my heart felt warm, and I truly thought, "Ah, I'm glad I made this."

It's okay if I couldn't go to the fireworks festival.
It's okay if I couldn't take them somewhere far away.
Sitting around the table with my child, and having them smile and say it's delicious.
Just that alone made today a day that truly shone.

I am doing my best every day.
Moving a lot, enduring a lot, and occasionally splurging.
And seeing my child's smile gives me strength again.

"You did well today too."
"You're amazing."
"You worked hard."

I want to say those words to myself properly.
Even if no one else praises me, I know best because I'm the one who lived it.

So today, I will say it out loud.
"I did a great job!"
I'll keep that moment when they said "Mom, it's delicious!" as a treasure in my heart.
The time I was too tired to move, and the fact that I rested a bit and got back up.

I want to praise myself for all of it.


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