(39) Freshman year of college: My challenge began with learning to rely on others

Hello everyone, this is Ayato.
For this 39th entry, I will be writing about the theme I realized after becoming a college freshman: that 'relying on others was also a challenge.' Up until now, I was the type who tried to manage everything on my own as much as possible. However, through my college life, that way of thinking has gradually changed.

I thought doing things alone was the norm

Up until high school, I thought it was normal to research and solve things on my own even if I didn't understand them. I felt that asking others was a sign of weakness, so I avoided it as much as I could.
That attitude continued for a while even after I entered college.

Even if the assignment details were vague or I couldn't grasp the intent of the class, I chose to 'just do it myself' for the time being.

Situations where I am entrusted with decisions have increased in college

In college classes, there are often no detailed explanations. I have to think for myself about what to do, how far to take it, and how to proceed.
At first, that freedom made me anxious.

As I continued to think by myself, time would just slip away, and I found myself in more situations where I wondered, 'Is this the right way to do it?'

The result of taking the plunge and asking someone

One day, I decided to take the plunge and ask the people around me. Honestly, I was very nervous and felt embarrassed.
However, when I actually asked, they answered me surprisingly easily.

Moreover, knowing that there were others who were struggling just like me made me feel that 'perhaps I didn't need to carry it all on my own.'

How relying on others made things easier

Since I started relying on others, my mind has felt a little lighter. This is because I am now able to resolve things early instead of leaving them unknown.
Also, by learning how others think, I felt that my own perspective had broadened.

It was a major change to be able to notice options that I couldn't see when I was thinking by myself.

The form of a challenge is different for everyone

Until now, I thought that a challenge meant "starting something new." However, I now feel that "facing things I was bad at" is also a challenge.
For me, relying on others was a big step in itself.

Admitting that I can't do something and asking for help is not easy, but it also brings many rewards.

Looking ahead to my college life

From now on, I want to move forward while engaging with those around me, rather than keeping things I don't understand to myself.
I believe that realizing this feeling during my freshman year of college will surely be useful for my future life.

Rather than aiming for perfection, I want to be someone who can act flexibly.

Conclusion

This 39th article is also a record of a challenge for me.
If there is anyone out there struggling in the same way, I would be happy if this could be a trigger for them to think, "It's okay to rely on others."

Thank you for reading this far. That is all for today.

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