[Self-Introduction] In my 40s. Many days don't go as planned... but I don't want to give up yet.

Is this sudden?

I'm a corporate slave in my 40s.

To be honest,
I can't say my life is going well.

Regarding my job and my future,
the anxiety of "Is it okay to stay like this?" is always in the back of my mind.

Unlike when I was in my 20s or 30s,
I can no longer run on momentum alone,
and my physical strength and recovery speed have definitely declined.

Even so...
for some reason, there is a part of me that still can't give up.

I want to let my children do what they want to do,
and I want to challenge myself to do what I want to do as well.

I aim for a way of working that isn't tied to a company. But I won't tell fairy tales.

When you hear "a way of working not tied to a company,"
you might imagine glittering success stories or flashy side hustle tales.

But what I want to write here
is not that kind of story.

・There are many failures
・The results are still a work in progress
・The anxiety hasn't disappeared

Even so,
this is a record of a 40-something trying to move forward little by little.



Exercise is for health, but it is also for "thinking."

When I'm feeling down,
or when I'm overthinking and can't move.

I've recently realized that moving my body is good for me.

Running is fine.
Walking is fine.
Gardening is fine.

Then, strangely,
the noise in my head gets a little quieter.

Even if I don't find an answer,
I can think, "This is fine for today."

Exercise was
not just for training the body,
but a switch for organizing my thoughts.



Outdoors, gardening, and alcohol

I don't live a perfect life.

I love camping,
I love BBQ,
I love gardening,
and I love the beer I drink afterward more than anything.

I want to be careful about my health.
But I don't want to quit drinking either.

It's contradictory, but
this is my reality right now.



Why am I posting here?

The reason is simple.

For people who are similarly:
・Feeling confused about their work
・Anxious about the future in their 40s
・Wanting to change something but not knowing where to start

To such people,
I want to quietly whisper,
"How about this way of thinking?"
"Isn't this way of living okay too?"

I don't intend to force any correct answers on you.

I just
want you to feel that you are not alone, and that's enough.


What I will write in this note

In this note, I will mainly write about things like this:
・Realistic worries and hesitations of being in my 40s
・How exercise and the outdoors have influenced my thinking
・Things that didn't last, things I quit
・Small habits that have continued despite everything

In free articles,
I will be as honest as possible, based on empathy.

In paid articles,
I plan to go a little deeper
and summarize my thoughts and organized ideas.


Finally

I don't intend to change my life all at once.

But
I feel like I can still
create a tomorrow that is just a little better than today.

If even one sentence
makes you feel "I get that,"
please come read again.

From here on, I will continue quietly.

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