Recent Jelly Experiences, Realizations, and Feelings

Back in the day, especially, I was like that.

I hated being wrong.
Well, I still don't like it now.

However, I have now realized that the desire not to be wrong can potentially lead to avoiding dialogue ☺️

Not running away from things I consider failures.
And, the fact that everyone makes mistakes.
I realized painfully that as long as this feeling persists, it's like saying I'm constantly worried about being evaluated ☺️

I didn't run away from this either.

When was I running away from this feeling, I wonder?
It must have been when I didn't have any breathing room.
It must have been when I often felt, 'It's not my fault!'
Jelly was like that. Always.

Even now, when Jelly is tired and frustrated,
I feel a strong impatience wanting those around me to understand,
'I'm doing so much here—❗️'
And so, I often take it out on others,
and I tend to take information from those around me negatively.

Maybe it's also because I'm a bit of a rush-head 🤣
This is Jelly's story.

It seems there are times when separating things is also important ☺️
To do that, I need to face and feel Jelly's own feelings without running away.

Sit down, have some tea or coffee, and just relax.

Accepting that it's okay to have a part of myself that feels rushed because I'm being dragged around by various things ☺️

Because it's true that I'm feeling rushed.

This is also a form of kindness and love.

That is what Jelly thinks.

It was good to feel the experience, think about it, and put it into words.

The header is a blue sky and cosmos flowers.
Lovely, isn't it ☺️💓