Greetings

Nice to meet you, my name is Tsubaki🌺
I am a working mom raising a 7-year-old daughter and a 3-year-old son.

The origin of the name "Tsubaki" comes from my birth flower✨
(I was born on December 10th)

In the Edo period, it was said to be unlucky because the way the flower falls off whole looks like a person's head being severed, but...

I feel that the way it falls cleanly is beautiful.
(Like Namie Amuro✨)
Like the camellia flower, I want to live a life without regrets so that I can have a magnificent curtain call.

38 years since I was born into this world.

What kind of person am I...?
Please let me talk about it a little here.

My personality is serious and meticulous.

"What are my strengths?"
When I ask that, many people answer like this.

It's a common thing to be told, but every time I hear it, I have mixed feelings.

Somehow"Serious"feels plain and makes me think I'm a boring person...

I am very shy, so I envied people who could talk to anyone easily.

I envied people who could tell jokes and make others laugh.

That's why I felt somewhat guilty about my plain, serious personality, but...

|Am I really a boring person because I am serious?

I recently dug a little deeper into this "serious" personality that has been bothering me for years.

When I did, the keyword"not good at cutting corners"emerged.

When I was in junior high school, I was in the table tennis club.
The teacher was very strict, and the practice menu was hard.

Because it was so hard, some people would cut corners behind the teacher's back, but...

I kept diligently completing the menu as instructed.

And because of that seriousness, I was chosen as vice-captain, even though I didn't have much ability.


When I became a university student, I studied architecture.
For model-making assignments, I was prepared to pull all-nighters and would finish my work until I was satisfied.

I used the TV as a radio and kept working even after the day changed.

The "Good evening" greeting heard from the TV
had changed to "Good morning" by the time I noticed.

I experienced days like that many times.

That"cannot cut corners"personality is surely the reason why I am called"serious".

"Serious"If you think of it as a boring person, you start to dislike yourself, but if you think
"I have a personality that can't cut corners", your heart feels a little lighter.


After all, the world changes with just one perspective.

"Serious"I want to face myself more positively instead of labeling myself as"a boring person".

As a serious person, I want to live a "mindful life"

As a "serious" person, I cannot cut corners.

That is why I want to live a mindful life is what I think.

However, now that I am married and have a child, I feel that it has become very difficult to do everything mindfully.

The face of a mother, the face of a worker, my true self...

Every day, I switch gears frantically, just trying to get through the things right in front of me.

Every time I spend a day busy like that,

"I want to live more mindfully!"

that feeling wells up more and more.

The mindfulness I seek.

It is

a life where I face each and every thing properly.

"Mindfulness" means facing things one by one

Looking back at my single days.
When I went on a trip, I would make detailed plans and create a travel itinerary.

And I would take hundreds of photos at the destination, and when I returned, I would carefully make an album with comments.

I also liked making sweets, and I spent three hours making tiramisu to celebrate my mother's birthday.

I was someone who valued events and treated them with care.

Ever since I got married, even when I make travel plans, I end up packing in a rush the night before, or checking the route on the day itself.

As for meals, I sometimes end up eating while standing up while taking care of my child.

Even though I should be getting a lot of things done,
when I look back on the day, I cannot remember "what I was able to do today."

Many precious events are being overwritten and disappearing one after another.

Somehow, that felt empty.

I have come to want to live my life like I used to, cherishing the present moment and facing it with care.

The version of me that is a mom, the version that is a working professional, the version that is just me...

I want to face each and every version of myself.

And I want to put my precious memories into words and leave them behind.

With that feeling in mind, I started writing on note.

What I want to convey on note

Here, I would like to share the events I experience in my daily life and how I organize my life using Notion.

Even though I lead a hectic daily life and am busy, there are times when I feel anxious, as if I am not getting anywhere.

Surely, little by little, the future is getting better.

A note for hacking a careful life, written by me, who is serious and meticulous.

I hope this note serves as a reference for you to treat your own life with more care and importance.